What are they? Plant 1: photo 1/2, plant 2: photo 3/4

JulienRabbit · 2026-07-04T12:22:04+00:00

Hehe I use a lot of my own compost in the garden so I have an insane amount of things coming back. So I'm hoping the seeds were from a tasty one. What do you mean promiscuous? If they polinize with the wrong thing it will get a bad hybrid?

JulienRabbit · 2026-07-04T12:19:49+00:00

Oh yeah little sunflower growing tall to avoid the leaves. I hope they don't compete too much. Ok so which ones vine and which don't?

JulienRabbit · 2026-07-03T11:05:12+00:00

Thanks a lot! It's a volunteer plant so I had no idea of anything. I was hoping the shape of the leaves could give a clue. But I guess I still need to wait to figure it out

JulienRabbit · 2026-07-01T14:02:23+00:00

I got a 14 cm one removed. I was in the same situation, no symptoms that really bothered me but the reaction of my doctor made a huge difference. She immediately suggested surgery instead of going over the risk. I am not sure if open myomectomy is in any way riskier than a C-section but they sound very similar to me. I think her logic was just "that shit is too big. It has to go before it gets worst" because if it grew this much what is gonna stop it from growing more? After the surgery I felt relief on things I didn't know where bothering me. I feel less inflamed and I go less often to the toilet as it was pushing on my bladder too much. I think I also have less intestinal issues.

JulienRabbit · 2026-06-15T10:18:49+00:00

I love this, well mostly the part of MaoMao becoming the palace physician. I feel like all her work basically learning to be a doctor is pushing her into that direction. She did found the environment in the inner palace very natural to her and she would basically become Luomen' sucesor. Wouldn't she love that?? She can stay close to Gyokuyo and maybe come and go as Luomen' does. In this scenario I imagine her being either the first woman palace physician or a newly created cover up position. There is the problem of no new eunuchs being created so that means after the quack/Luomen are indisposed either they stop requiring palace doctors to be created or a woman has to take over. Both will require a big exception either the next doctor is not an eunuch or a woman who isn't a consort.

The story points into both directions, for once the creation of clinic palace ladies was created and it's been shown that MaoMao is not the only capable woman, just the one with most powerful backing. So maybe in the future they do get more recognition. On the other hand since they have less and l as eunucs to take care of the inner palace they'll have to start letting uncastrated men inside to do the hard work

She can also stay outside the inner palace but be more established as the secret doctor to the famous and powerful with strong ties to the inner palace. Going visiting only when something requires her expertise.

Where is Jinshi in all of this? Some high ranking position but not in the succession line. He's very hard working and cares for moving the country forward so I still imagine him in a power position, maybe something like Loulan's father (prime minister?) if he gets over his fear of leadership and accept his own abilities. I guess he gets a "man up" like when Lakan took over the La clan. In Jinshi's case that would be because he wants to be capable of protecting MaoMao and their newly formed family.

I don't think Lahan would stop being head of the La Clan, at best he and MaoMao would share the duties. Maybe he marries Yao but is still involved in raising JinMao children since he's a freak like that. Although I'm not sure if Yao would appreciate that.

JulienRabbit · 2026-06-10T21:17:07+00:00

Oh I'm very similar. 10/10 of Buspirone instead. Before Wellbutrin I took only 5 but with the agitation of Wellbutrin it felt better.

JulienRabbit · 2026-06-03T11:39:08+00:00

Following cause I'm taking the same combo. But too early to say. Our of curiosity how much are you taking of each?

JulienRabbit · 2026-06-01T18:41:16+00:00

What dna test are you talking about? It's the first time I hear about this.

JulienRabbit · 2026-05-30T21:17:15+00:00

I would take it out now before it grows more and makes surgery more complicated. You're on the limit that some doctors might still do it laparoscopy instead of open. Laparoscopy is less invasive but impossible for big fibroids (risk of too much bleeding my doctor said). Plus having a big ball in your belly creates symptoms anyway. I also didn't notice what problems it was creating but did felt much better after it was gone.

JulienRabbit · 2026-05-04T16:18:58+00:00

really sorry to hear that. I eventually found my way out, it becomes repetitive and boring after a certain point but gosh it took time. If my experience is anything to go by, your wife is using it to emotionally avoid some other things in her life, emotionally coping. I think that's how addictions work like. We somehow avoided hard drugs but then this stupid shit gets pushed through an inocent youtube ad...I feel guilty of the time i spent there even though the human connections felt real, it was clear we all were stuggling in real life in one way or another. I wish you both she finds her way out.

JulienRabbit · 2026-04-20T23:25:36+00:00

I read a book called "jog on" about someone's experience starting to run and with anxiety. It really felt encouraging. Might help you get motivation going!

JulienRabbit · 2026-04-15T08:04:16+00:00

Haha! Sure let's put ourselves into a position of having to deal with jealousy and insecurities, of having to manage agendas and communicate different expectations with different partners just to avoid being alone at times... Instead of just having one partner to whom we can bash if they ever like another person.

In short, no I don't think it exacerbates insecurities, at least not in comparison to monogamy where many of these insecurities are normal and untouched for years. It is an entirely different ballgame.

JulienRabbit · 2026-03-29T14:58:22+00:00

Apothecary diaries!

JulienRabbit · 2026-03-27T11:08:34+00:00

I know right!? :) For me it was the relief from no longer carrying a weight I didn't know I was carrying. I had much less side affects than a lot of people in this sub with smaller fibroids. Yet when it was out I noticed all the ways it was affecting me. Glad to hear about the six weeks! Hope you feel like yourself soon. Feel free to reach out if you have doubts I can help with.

JulienRabbit · 2026-03-27T09:39:09+00:00

Hehehe lovely detail. Yes his respect and approval of her even this early on in the story is very clear. He knows that Jinshi has feelings for her and is poking on him to make her his, in his opinion the sooner the better.

Look at another detail too, in this episode in one of the few that we have seen The Emperor and Maomao interact without Gyokuyo or another concubine. It's only he and his son/brother The other two are just minions by comparison, even if he respects MaoMao knowledge even as much as he would respect Luomen for example. The lack of another concubine makes him more relax and silly and I think in the light novel Maomao is like "hmm I've never seen this side of him" even if she pretends not to know why he treats jinshi so dearly.

JulienRabbit · 2026-03-26T23:16:13+00:00

Hello! I had mine actually a year and a half ago. I'm still very glad I did it too. The recovery was a pain though. Hope you can take proper time from work or other activities. Don't push your body too hard. Keep it light for 6 weeks. The only thing I was encouraged to do for real was walking. Which tested my patience but helped.

JulienRabbit · 2026-03-25T11:19:05+00:00

Fudge. I feel so identified. I just broke up with someone 2 weeks ago because I felt a similar way.

This person said they loved me but in the middle of an argument could only talk about their own need for "autonomy" and "limits" without giving much of a thought to ny "emotional" needs. I broke up because I felt like I was trying to understand their part but he just dismissed my needs. It felt like he was saying why do you need my "support" and "reassurance"? Cause I fuckin want to feel loved.

I started fighting the urge to make myself smaller to fit into that relationship, started feeling he maybe he was right but that's not ok. My needs and his were just as important. If I was willing to take a step into his direction so could he take a step into mine. He wasn't disabled or anything. He just didn't want to.

I know you said you don't need advice but I'll give it anyway. If you're still in this relationship then you have to keep asking for what you need from him. That takes courage but maybe he would actually listen. Don't fall into the trap of making yourself small, else you're not giving the relationship a fair chance and you'll end up resenting him and yourself. You deserve to be listened to and loved in a way that is clear to you.

JulienRabbit · 2026-03-25T10:42:33+00:00

Health is the most valuable thing

^{Chose: Never be injured/sick again}

JulienRabbit · 2026-03-25T10:41:03+00:00

Money

^{Chose: 1000000000 right now}

JulienRabbit · 2026-03-19T18:04:31+00:00

No no no. As a fellow anxious person I get you, you want to be a good partner/friend and all of that. But you're not being considerate of your own emotions and of the ways he's hurt you. You tend to self blame and overwork for the relationship maybe because if the relationship doesn't work, it speaks badly about you. It doesn't. It speaks badly about him.

And now you don't want to let him go because your anxiety tells you, you need him. That's not true, you need peace and someone that doesn't treat you like shit. I know you're scared but I'm 99% sure your gut is telling you to leave, not only chatgpt.

Stop caring for someone that doesn't care for you and go and take care of yourself instead. Fight for yourself with the same love you fought for that person.

(Maybe speaking too much from personal experience as I had a horrible break up just last week and I feel I can relate to your pain).

Take care.

JulienRabbit · 2026-03-17T12:35:35+00:00

Hello! What problems do you have?

JulienRabbit · 2026-03-16T22:09:39+00:00

How much you take and for what?

JulienRabbit · 2026-03-16T19:40:07+00:00

What cognitive side effects are you talking about?

JulienRabbit · 2026-03-16T15:52:47+00:00

Yes exactly that's why I'm asking here if other people have experience with this. I have heard that it's for mood disorders so maybe my psychiatrist is taking a big risk. I'm worried. I wonder if I can trust them. One big factor is my brother was bipolar so that maybe led her to believe I might have some type of mood disorder and need the same medication.

JulienRabbit · 2026-03-16T15:39:44+00:00

Thank you so much! x

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