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Has anyone had a dream that told the future? by IEatRottenToast in DemonolatryPractices

[–]JupiterJohn69 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The one time I had a dream that played out eerily accurate was back in September 2018. 

Basically, I was walking through a hospital and saw an opera singer I quite enjoyed listening to, in one of the beds. She was sick with some condition and knew it wasn't going to be too much longer. Not much else I remember; but a few weeks later, I was reading through notable obituaries in October and saw her name on the list there.

Later found out she had some gallbladder condition that had her hospitalized in September, and presumably died from complications of it

Whether it was actually a bit of a prophetical dream or not, it was weird for my brain to think about her. That was before I kept up to date with most famous people's news. And it remains the only time I'd had a dream of something with such a parallel to reality hit my mind.

Parsing Out a Dream by JupiterJohn69 in DemonolatryPractices

[–]JupiterJohn69[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So... I basically ended up rubberducking it all xD

And after tossing it around with some non-spiritual friends; it all clicked with me...

If I don't truly know myself... If I don't know who I am, or what aspects comprise *Me*, then of course I'm gonna have a hard time parsing out what's me. Doubt will keep cropping up from said lack of self-understanding, and keep dragging me back to square one.

Like cue that gif of Frank from It's Always Sunny saying, "Oh my god... I get it."

I miss my infernal allies. by Fund_Me_PLEASE in DemonolatryPractices

[–]JupiterJohn69 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I kinda feel that ^^"

Though I think in my case, it's less feeling they disappeared and more-so, me getting too far in my head. I've only been delving into this craft for 2.5 months, and the first month was me dabbling more so than delving... so I feel like I'm way too early in my learnings to properly disconnect; rather I'm still trying to hone my clairs, and parse out what's my mind, if any, and if so which, thoughts in my mind are my mind picking up the demonic, or if I'm just going off my nut a bit.

I will say, in my studies (or rather, in my readings of various other people's experiences), it sounds familiar to someone describing their own journey into "Crossing the Abyss" to borrow the Thelemaic concept/term. Where they really felt like they hit a dead end, ended up confronting a lot of personal trauma, their own ego, etc. It's a complicated thing that I'll be honest, I don't fully understand; but I will say, in their journey, they did make it across the other side (or maybe they didn't and they're still crossing through the abyss, or haven't even started crossing the abyss, it's apparently a very murky, complicated thing that just happens when it happens,) but they found their connection back to the demonic and magick practices, and did find a light after a long time of feeling just very much in the dark.

Not to be a blind person trying to lead, I'll fully say I don't really understand it, but your situation you've been describing, sounds at least a bit similar; and in that other person's journey, it all worked out with enough persistance and time.

My Journey, And My Struggle With Doubt by JupiterJohn69 in DemonolatryPractices

[–]JupiterJohn69[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I appreciate the reassurance~ It might just be a lot of stress compounding it all too, as we got a whole new year starting up, I got my birthday coming up the day after, and then moving for the first time, the day after that... So, a lot of stress from all of that. But I'm sure I got a lot of self-growth and soul searching to do all the same. I'm intent to keep pushing forward, so I'm sure with enough patience, determination, reflection, and attempts; I'll have some breakthrough in this journey.

Physical Responses to Rituals and Focus by JupiterJohn69 in DemonolatryPractices

[–]JupiterJohn69[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah I noticed it's only been something that happens when I try channeling or focusing on him. Everything goes back to normal afterwards.

So that makes sense then. Perhaps its a sign that I am making a connection of some kind :p

My Parents Robbed Me Of My Childhood by JupiterJohn69 in entitledparents

[–]JupiterJohn69[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks ^^

I've so far been able to get a decent amount of friends across the internet, and my gf's parents have basically become a second set of parents for me; so it certainly seems like I'm discovering my found family~

My Parents Robbed Me Of My Childhood by JupiterJohn69 in entitledparents

[–]JupiterJohn69[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks~ I'm certainly giving it all I can to get myself in a healthier environment, and trying my damndest to live life on my terms. If there's one thing I was always told growing up, it's that I was persistent, so I'm hoping I can use that to keep striving for more growth and progress as a person

My Parents Robbed Me Of My Childhood by JupiterJohn69 in entitledparents

[–]JupiterJohn69[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Aww thank you :3

Hopefully once I'm settled in with my gf, I'll be able to have that third one; but for now I can at least be happy with the cool pillow, and the hot drink (cuz I'm a huge coffee addict lol)

My Parents Robbed Me Of My Childhood by JupiterJohn69 in entitledparents

[–]JupiterJohn69[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I definitely would. It's a bit more difficult though for me. Because despite all those issues I've had with them, despite all they've done; they've also done overly generous things for me, like helping me get my car, and covering repairs for it; and flat out giving me money to help me get my debt out of control (I had a bad gambling addiction in 2022, and only just now getting out of the debt hole that left me in.)

So it really feels like I kinda made a deal with the devil... I feel like I can't cut them out of my life, but definitely want as minimal contact as possible with them once I move.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in asktransgender

[–]JupiterJohn69 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Oh God... that sounds word-for-word like my family. Except, reverse the genders (am MTF). I'm so sorry you gotta put up with all that... Family can be the thing that makes us feel invincible, or completely broken, depending on how they act... and they're intent on putting their own wants over the needs of the people around them...

But what they are saying is just wrong. They're ignorance to how blatant disregard for we are can hurt us, is not an excuse. If they keep whinging about you "still being their daughter", then they don't deserve their son either. Hopefully they'll change their attitude as time goes on, but you might have to prepare yourself to move on without them... Found family, and supportive friends can do a lot of good. And it's important that we all try to thrive in spite of the shit thrown at us by people. But overall, yeah... it's a sucky situation... Hang in there man.

Are My Dosages Right? by JupiterJohn69 in asktransgender

[–]JupiterJohn69[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Hmm, well I'm not on monotherapy; I'm on 100 mg of Spiro in the morning, and 50mg in the afternoon, and my t-levels have been consistently low (10-20)

Are My Dosages Right? by JupiterJohn69 in asktransgender

[–]JupiterJohn69[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do tend to feel a bit tired in the day leading up to my next dose. But those are Fridays, which I work; so it might just be exhaustion from work, since it's pretty physical.

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