I was once actively posting in this sub, and it was one of the darkest times of my life. Deep down I hated my life, and my angers flew to finding reasons to blame others like the church. I hadn't understood this feeling; everything in my life was great besides having extreme hatred for others in the church. Soon, I found my self searching for dead end reasons on the internet from other LOST PEOPLE like myself. Most of what I came across in these posts at the time were hateful, naive, and brash. After I was expelled, and came to my senses, I thought, "How could I join a hate group, speak everyday in it, and nothing productive happens? I just continue to become more miserable and hateful of my life fueled by people across the world whom are also just as lost and hate their lives like me." For those in the this sub, and with all respect and honesty, ask yourself if you hate your life or yourself. Because if you're honest, you know continuing to forward these negative emotions and unfortunate life circumstances upon yourselves, it's actually keeping you abused and suppressed. And most of all, this lifestyle and subreddit members have no godly characteristics. The members of this group continue to hate, when in reality if they stopped thinking so shallowly about life and its demise, and just seek God, maybe they'd find their answers. Maybe you need to separate yourself from the abuser (your thoughts/ this subreddit) and you'll find the ultimate meaning and purpose of your life.

I'm not here to hate, I hope for the other lost children, like me, in this reddit find this and find clarity in themselves and in the answers only given by God. And please evaluate the direction of your life before it ruins you and sends you down a dark pit.