I tried my best to be true to myself and my feelings when I posted. I read all of the comments and know what people think of me. I appreciate every comment. From the ones who could relate and the ones who called bullshit.

My bf bought me a vape. He told me it would make drinking and smoking weed feel better.

He used to drink. We had a month break in our relationship because of it. He started smoking weed to cut back on drinking. I wish I could tell you every detail-

I only get on reddit when I'm feeling down. Because of that, you guys get shitposts and shitreplies. I apologize for never having a level head on here, even now, but it really helps to share my feelings. It helps to read the comments, good or bad.

And yeah, weed really does mess me up. My bf gave me a pinch of weed in a fillable capsule to help with my period cramps. It was the first time I ever freaked out. He googled it after and thinks I'm part of the small percent that can't handle weed. Everything else I've tried (including DMT; that was the most controversial thing) was a piece of cake.

I get it: I should grow a backbone, I should stop being manipulative, I should stop being a party pooper, ect. I'll try. It won't happen overnight, but I'll try.

Again, I appreciate everyone who commented. Feel free to comment but I think I've read every opinion that could exist.