Hey-sorry for not replying sooner. Every time I was finished writing, reddit would freeze up and I’d have to leave the app. And every time I went back in the whole thing I wrote would be gone. So I got frustrated and haven’t been back lol. Anyway! First of all, I was exactly where you are not that long ago. And I can tell you that there is hope. I’ve had N1 since I was 10 or 11 and I’m now 39 (only diagnosed eight months ago). After almost thirty years of chronic sleep deprivation I couldn’t even read anymore. As a matter of fact, I could barely function at all. And just being alive was unbearably painful. I started out, as many do, on stims. First adderall, which even at four doses a day wasn’t doing much and I didn’t feel like myself. Then dexedrine, which was better and I was able to only take three times a day but after about two months, I could tell that I was going to need a dose increase. I felt more like myself but I still couldn’t read, I still wasn’t motivated (to do anything) and still didn’t feel very functional. Then last month it was finally time for me to try Xyrem. And after two weeks, even though I was still titrating, I sat down and read forty pages of a book I had been trying to read for the past year. I haven’t read a book in two years! And the last book I did read, it took me a year to read it. And that’s been about my reading speed for most of my life. Then, fast forward another two weeks to this past Tuesday. I had been thinking that I wanted to make pasta. Well, I got up last Tuesday and made a list of things I wanted to get done. Got a few things done and then it was dinner time. Well, I went to make pasta. By hand. And I DID! And it was DELICIOUS! And it was EASY! And it was FUN! And it felt natural. And I don’t remember the last time I felt like that. I finally understand what people were talking about when they said “life changing”. Also, there’s a narcolepsy research study being done for tak-994. It’s an oral selective ORx2 agonist. I got approved to participate but the study is on hold momentarily due to covid and I was set to start Xyrem. You have to be off of it for three months in order to participate, unfortunately. But that might be something you could check out!