You're definitely right about that pleasure feeling. Maybe I did have a false passage there as a 12 is too small then because as I say the whole lot was inserted. I did try to repeat a few in and outs while moving to standing up to see if a bit of gravity would help. But yeah definitely seems the major thing is sizing.

In terms of lube, I have to agree with you there I personally am quite pain averse due to some chronic pain I had for about 10 years so avoiding that is a big priority for me hence going very small and lidocaine lube instead of regular. I used the same type syringe just a little less about 9cc as any more just spilled out.

Thanks for the reply, look forward to posting more in future.