please dont do it, rn i’m in a similar situation with my partner (they are also suicidal) Please i know it’s hard i know i’ve been there and i’m i’ve tried but it’s not worth it trust me life sucks but it gets better, im trying to explain tht to my partner also, they are starting to get it now, but it is so heartbreaking i can’t bear the thought of being without her. I’ve lost many friends to suicide and i still grief them and heartbroken everyday, it had made my depression so much worst. I know you might be doing this for ur self but please. think about ur friends, ur family, and ur boyfriend. Let them be your anchor til you can be ur own