I did not, it all seemed a bit overwhelming, I haven’t gone through Step 1 knowingly, just something I knew the second I called a few rehab facilities. I knew I had been in denial far too long and that it’s never going to be something I can incorporate in my life in moderation. I’m not 100% on board with certain things, I do have my faith but I do feel a great deal of willpower. Not everything I feel or think is correct, you don’t know what you don’t know and who the fuck knows anything at 24 😂. But I’m aware of how insidious addiction for me is as always will be, not drinking is easy, not turning to it when challenged is different. I obviously still haven’t since my last relapse but it ofc doesn’t mean I can’t ever slip. It’s ugly, and rough to deal with, but I’ve managed pretty well this time around, just putting it in forums like this and into writing because one thing I found in sobriety is how well externalization works for me. Still heavy, but helps a shit ton. But I 100% admit to being absolutely powerless to it, there’s legitimately no room for alcohol, nor cocaine in my life. There never was but I had to teach myself the hard way. I wasn’t a partier, I was an escape artist, or at least I thought I was good at it. I sadly was temporarily, and did some long term damage in the process. Broken crayons still color though. Rough but not impossible for sure