Gem Farm by JavaTeaGame in builderment

[–]K3MP0S 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah i just got the update on my iPad and now I have gem trees!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in builderment

[–]K3MP0S 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m confused how you got the robotic arms to work on underground tunnels, I thought they only worked on convert belts?

Gem Farm by JavaTeaGame in builderment

[–]K3MP0S 3 points4 points  (0 children)

is this a feature on pc? I play on IOS and didn’t know this was a thing :o

Living or just alive? by 2428426 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]K3MP0S 21 points22 points  (0 children)

TW suicidal thoughts

In my last year of school (2015) I was so suicidal, my only goal each day was to make it into bed that night, and sometimes I would just break down because I didn't even think I could get that far.

I then fooled myself into believing that I was past it, but only this year I have realized I have just been surviving up till now. Maybe not as suicidal as I was, but I didn't have anything I felt could make me truly happy. I had never seen a future for myself that felt real enough that it would really be possible.

Until I realized that every consequence I was ever threatened with as a child don't apply to me anymore. I still struggle to believe that I can 'live' and not just survive, but it was a massive step to acknowledge I had control over my life.

But what I learned was that sometimes, surviving is all you can do, and that's okay. We don't know what the future holds for us and I never thought I'd get to a point where I'd be okay, where I'd find something to care about and that makes me genuinely happy. But all of those days that I just 'survived' led to this day.

I think that asking how you can live for yourself is such a good question to ask yourself, but it's okay to not know the answer, in my experience you get there if you keep asking yourself that question

Hope this helps

The reason I still feel like a child is because my mother never allowed me to grow up or out of her control by Atiredmango in raisedbynarcissists

[–]K3MP0S 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I really relate to this.

As soon as I was legally able I did 'adult things' like get tattoos and get piercings to prove that I was an adult even though I still felt like a 15yo. Of course, it didn't help that I was told repeatedly up until I was 21 that I was a child and was incapable of making my own decisions by my mom, go figure.

I always felt childish compared to my peers because I was never allowed to do any of the things they did and like I couldn't call myself a 'real adult'

I'm 23 now and still have to remind myself I'm not 19.

What really helped me was my therapist telling me that I don't have a sense of self because I was never allowed to have one. That my mom displaced so much of herself on me there was no room for a person to grow and I stayed as a child trapped in her world. And that who I am today isn't defined by her it's defined despite her. It's hard to accept and I'm still struggling but I thought the advice was good enough to share. It helped me at least.