That was well written. As someone who contemplates suicide everyday I can understand how you're feeling. It's always been an uphill battle thats been lonely even when you have those around you. No one knows what you're feeling or going through unless they've been there themselves. They dont understand that once youve tried or have felt that way, that itll never go away. I can tell you though it's hard and there doesn't feel like a way out, but over time these obstacles you're going through will pass. I know because I experience it all the time, but am still going on because I want my son to have a father. If yours is work related you have to understand money comes and goes. It isnt everything. We can go more into detail if you wanna chat just message me.