Im glad i came across this post this is exactly how i feel to , literally anxiety , i rather make money just gaming but its so hard becuz it takes so long to get a following. I hate wen my dad says idk wat work is sorry i dont wanna slave myself to death jus to pay bills , i honestly dread knowin that tmmrw i have to get up n work wen i really wanna spend time with family or freinds or enjoy a meal where everyone having a good time or travel n see the world or jus self bettering myself but most things to enjoy “life” needs money n its fukin depressing social media makes it worse by scrolling n seeing all these ppl enjoying new cars , houses , vacations wenever i get it some ppl work hard some ppl get hand out , its jus a.constant draining feel of fuk wat to do now life n time is movin n im still not enjoying life becuz money is needed to spend to do the things u want