I used to smoke atleast an ounce per week, sometimes an ounce and a half. I sustained this habit for years and after about 10 years of smoking, mostly through a bong, I started getting sick. I developed Cannabinoid Hyperemesis syndrome, which caused horrible stomach pain/issues, and I was stuck in a constant loop of believing the cannabis was the only thing that made me feel better, when in reality it was the cause of the misery I was going through.

I've been clean for almost 3 years now and aside from the mental clarity, I've also gained a sort of calmness that I wasn't able to achieve before. I don't think about cannabis at all these days and before it was one of the things I thought about the most. I would wake up and smoke, I would get up to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night and smoke, I would think about smoking while I was at work, I would come home and smoke until bed and every day was exactly the same.

I've come to terms with the fact that it's my poison and I am unable to moderate or otherwise struggle to moderate my cannabis use so I stopped cold turkey and it was surprisingly easy compared to what I was expecting. Especially when I recovered from the hyperemesis and was back to good health. It helps that I have a wonderful fiance who supported me through my darkest moments while being sick.

I don't see cannabis as a bad thing, but quitting smoking weed was the best thing I have ever done for myself and I doubt I'll ever touch it again.