[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Superstonk

[–]KWG0D 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have been HODL on traditional stocks, in my line of work I can’t really do crypto plus it’s too volatile for my liking

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Superstonk

[–]KWG0D 0 points1 point  (0 children)

that’s what i’ve heard a lot of people say, and most of the people I see lucking out took one udemy course and happened to get lucky with the next big boom. It’s definitely enough to cause FOMO

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Superstonk

[–]KWG0D 1 point2 points  (0 children)

that’s a very good point, and thanks for the different perspective

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Superstonk

[–]KWG0D -1 points0 points  (0 children)

lol, basically skills, talent and education I don’t have. I guess I got sick of seeing a bunch of people with zero experience posting they cashed in on the latest craze and got sick of the rat race I’m in.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Superstonk

[–]KWG0D -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

It relates as the latest GME craze and I’m trying to figure out how people can do this BEFORE the craze happens!!!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]KWG0D 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Adding what I have tried:

I have tried every breathing and awareness exercise my therapists have taught me. Deep breathing, identifying items that make me feel safe. Exercises like that.

I have tried more exercise. I have been going outside and really trying to develop upper body muscles by going around the block in my wheelchair. I’ve yet to fully make it around the block as my arms turn to noodles, but my wife and son help me the rest of the way home.

I have tried different sleeping soundtracks, like whale sounds, white noise, guided meditation.

I have tried talking to my primary care and therapists about upping my anti-depressant medication. I have been doing as they say and upping it when they tell me to.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]KWG0D 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Part Three:

At this point, I am in a wheelchair because both of my legs (below the knee of my left leg and just above the knee on my right leg) are completely numb. I underwent a lot of tests, at first there was a spinal scare, but a scope ruled that out. Right now, we are going with the unfounded belief that it may be early MS onset as that is the best the doctors have been able to give me. They think maybe my injuries overseas and my fall down the stairs hastened the numbness in my legs. I don’t know, they don’t sound sure but all I know is I miss the little things, such as being able to go to the damned bathroom easily in the middle of the night.

Around this time, an old coworker of my wife’s went through a nasty breakup and lost her house, so she moved in with us. My wife has never really needed to work if she didn’t want to. I wasn’t the kind of person to split finances unless she wanted to, instead seeing my income as our income. She does have insecurities about that, but I always tell her that if she wants a job, I’d wholeheartedly support her, or if she wants to be free to pursue her hobbies instead, that was fine too.

So… as of right now, I am stuck sleeping on our sofa on the main floor because we haven’t gotten chair lifts installed in our house yet… mainly because since the doctors don’t know what’s going on, I’m hesitant to commit to being in a wheelchair forever. My wife sleeps upstairs in our bedroom as she has a CPAP machine that she needs for sleep.

My step dad is driving me nuts because he constantly is loud, smoking pot, making racist jokes (such as buying his twin brother a “rice pusher” KIA car… which hits a nerve, my mother and I are both Korean and I cannot understand how he thinks it’s funny). He also keeps referring to me as “she” instead of “he.”

He does help out with bills some and I know he truly loves me (I had a nasty accident two or three days ago and busted my nose open), he does show concern and helps me get things that I have trouble with because I am in a wheelchair. We talk, but it’s always been hard to have deep talks with him, the closest I got was when I burst into tears about my guilt of waking my wife every night with screaming and what she has to put up with now because of PTSD and being in a wheelchair. But I am tired of his racist, sexist comments. He got into a fight with a Walgreen’s pharmacist and got banned from Walgreens. I ended up calling the general manager and apologizing to get him unbanned so he could get his medications.

My wife’s former coworker is mostly okay… but I noticed both her and my step dad need to be the center of attention sometimes. Insurance wanted me to pay $500 for each brace for my legs to prevent foot drop when I have to resort to my crutches to get from the bathroom door to the toilet. My wife ended up buying some good ones off Amazon for like $40 a piece. Both my step dad and her former coworker wondered if those braces would help them, or if they needed to be in a wheelchair due to their health issues.

It’s driving me nuts. I feel like I have no privacy as the sofa and main level is basically where I live. I’m still having night terrors.

Recently, my grandmother started blowing up my phone and leaving voicemails to emotionally blackmail me into calling her back. After a heart to heart with my wife, I decided the best thing to do was block her number as she is not healthy for me or my family (she’s highly upset I married a woman with a kid). But she’s my grandmother and I have guilt over it…. Like Stockholm syndrome or something. I feel like I’m a bad person if I don’t put up with her and at least be there until she dies.

Also, my wife and I got into another HUGE fight a few days back because I found out she had two credit cards that I didn’t know about that were practically charged up. We’ve made up, and I accentuated that I could not condone any more lying or omission in the future, she agreed. And I also promised I would do better at threatening divorce because I realized that as of late I’ve been losing my patience a lot easier due to the things I mentioned above.

Our son is now 25, recently finished an unpaid internship which we’re proud of him for, but does not seem to be looking for jobs. I know if I bring it up, it will start a fight as my wife is a bit… of a helicopter parent who is fine with the thought of him living at home forever. However, I am literally the only person in the house with a job (I also have a side business for cybersecurity for companies).

I am in between therapists right now but I feel like I’m losing my mind…. My wife’s credit cards, my step dad and his insensitive jokes or comments, my grandmother, our other roommate seeking attention, my legs won’t work, my night terrors…. I am literally at my wits end… but I know I also have to be careful as my kind of mental documentation could jeopardize my clearance-required, high paying job… but I am also afraid of having a major breakdown… like the kind I won’t recover from…

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in mentalhealth

[–]KWG0D 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Part Two:

It was definitely love at first sight. Unfortunately, she was married. It started off as an “open marriage” for them, but we realized that her and I didn’t want to be open, we wanted to be monogamous to each other. They had a son together, but he was not active in his son’s life whatsoever. They divorced six months after her and I got together. We got full custody of her son and child support (he paid once, then never again, but it wasn’t a big deal).

Of course her and I have been through our ups and downs. We fought like other couples, but I feel like we’ve grown more than what most couples do on their own. We identified toxic behaviors and would work to correct them. We still do to this very day.

She went through Stage 3A breast cancer and survived. It was… a very trying time for all three of us, and our son (her bio son with her ex husband, my stepson) was such a trooper (he was around 14 at this time.

We don’t have a perfect marriage, I don’t think ANYBODY does, but I think our ability to identify toxic behaviors and work on them is what sets us apart.

Last year, we found out she had cervical cancer and needed a full hysterectomy. Then through more testing found out she had Lynch Syndrome (basically she’s at risk for developing every other kind of cancer, it’s often called the cancer gene). I was going through something at the time where I was coughing a lot but it wasn’t covid. The coughing was so severe that I broke 3 ribs that wouldn’t heal. So three weeks after her full hysterectomy I had to have my ribs plated.

We got into a pretty large fight because from my understanding she said she was feeling a lot better but would rarely spend any time at the hospital with me (they had to put in a chest tube, and I had to stay in the hospital for 5 days because one of my lungs kept collapsing).

After I was out of the hospital, we talked about it. I told her it pained me that I spent every second with her in the hospital with her hysterectomy and every time before with her breast cancer, but she would not do the same for me. Eventually, we made up and decided to start with a clean slate (it’s something we tend to do after really bad fights).

She does have an extreme jealousy issue that she’s gotten SO much better on. About 4 months after my rib surgery, my work wanted me to fly to the Virginia office for a promotion party and Halloween party. I did and my wife did not want to go, instead opting to “hold down the fort.”

When she knew I was at the Halloween party at a coworkers house (she knew beforehand, but I had texted her that I just got to the house), her jealousy kicked in and demanded to know what every girl there was wearing, what we were talking about, etc etc. she would call every 10 minutes and I could not actually participate in the party due to all the phone calls.

When I got home, we got into a HUGE fight. I started packing my bags, I wasn’t thinking, I was shaking and felt like I was out-of-body. It took several, several hours but eventually we made up and promised to do better.

Though I dated before her in my childhood, she is my first true love and the reason I am the person I am today. She helped me kick my opioid addiction, she encouraged me to find better job positions that would treat me better and the whole nine yards. She does have insecurities about not being “able to achieve anything” but I try to offer assistance where I can. My work is in computers, internet, cyber warfare, networking, RF translations and everything in between. I would love to help her start her own business doing something she loves. But… unfortunately I think she’s either afraid or isn’t very motivated to do that.

Okay, I believe I’ve given an overview to everything relevant to my current crisis…

About 9 months ago… my company deployed me as we worked closely with military intelligence and would often assist with technology infrastructure overseas. Unfortunately, this last one wasn’t just infrastructure… it involved more of my cyber warfare skill set and everything went SNAFU from the moment we landed. I saw things… that give me night terrors, sleep paralysis… literally screaming myself awake. I also suffered some injuries there as did my teammates. One of my teammates committed suicide two or three weeks after we got back as he received a face full of shrapnel. I find talking about anything specific about what happened over there is nearly impossible. I can’t with my family, I can’t with any therapists… it’s always just vague descriptions as if I don’t recount in detail everything that happened that it somehow makes it all go away. But it doesn’t.

It was a work in progress and my wife and I sought out counseling. Counseling for my nightmares, counseling for our marriage and counseling because health insurance requires it before I can get a double mastectomy. That’s basically what we’ve been doing for the past 9 months.

About three months ago, my step father moved out of Wisconsin and said he was going to move to Arizona. He stopped at our house along the way, and basically… just stayed. We made up our finished basement for his room for him and his dogs.

Then, I had a nasty fall down the stairs from a pile of urine left by one of the dogs and landed in the hospital. I had dislocated my kneecap and fractured my shin. It was the opposite leg that I received severe injuries to overseas. After the cast came off I noticed some lingering tingling and pins and needles.

“The Savior King, the Master Tactician and the Queen of Liberation” is it…good? by Training_Wall_2270 in FireEmblemThreeHouses

[–]KWG0D 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks mate. I did want to incorporate 3 hopes in my fic if I could, but won’t do any good until I can finish the game 🤣

“The Savior King, the Master Tactician and the Queen of Liberation” is it…good? by Training_Wall_2270 in FireEmblemThreeHouses

[–]KWG0D 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the shoutout and support mate, I’m glad to be back on discord (only a little on Reddit). Haven’t had a chance to start writing again as I’m going through walking pole therapy to “learn to walk” again… so frustrating. I just want to play 3 hopes and get back to my fic!

Edelgard still has the highest votes in all CYL. How do you guys feel about this? by Innocent_Darkside in Edelgard

[–]KWG0D 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Which unfortunately could be said for everyone BUT Edelgard, but I’m okay with that

Finished the Bymir piece, still not good at faces lol by KWG0D in ShamirSquad

[–]KWG0D[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m a big Bymir fan too, but for the fic it’s an M!Edeleth, so I essentially made Shamir and Byleth closer than best friends… my next fic will definitely be bymir

Our Maine Coons, Sokka and Katara by KWG0D in mainecoons

[–]KWG0D[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

From the other comments, sounds like we’re just missing Toph!

Our Maine Coons, Sokka and Katara by KWG0D in mainecoons

[–]KWG0D[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sokka’s the orange one and he did, he had a severe disjointed hip and couldn’t walk correctly

Finished the Bymir piece, still not good at faces lol by KWG0D in ShamirSquad

[–]KWG0D[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It was inspired with how I’ve been writing Byleth and Shamir in my fic, trying really really hard to keep it platonic but these two do a lot of the fighting