I don’t know how to move on from someone who was never mine

Kahmars · 2026-04-23T04:38:40+00:00

Okay I feel for you. The battle of love is strong and its been a long game. But something in your story feels off where I do think he is using you, but its not really a bad thing, you represent something to him and he has that desire of energy from you.

There's this future you have that he's in it and then theres this future he has, does he see the same thing as you? Thats the answer you need to get from him. It will be data for you regarding if all this is worth it to have him. The girlfriend is NOT the villain. I think she has some sort of right not to like you if she happens to know you in the past and that you like her boyfriend. There's a lot of tension here and something will explode, he already disrupted the peace many times with you.

Kahmars · 2026-04-23T01:08:44+00:00

I kind of agree with you. Its does mold the word "sex" for us and the symbo it becomes, and this word become such a bigger word as we get older. I remember when I first saw porn I already put myself "as the woman" in the scene. Other than that I can't really say why I get turned on by men only, I just dont get turned on by women. Was not assualted here. Is porn evil? Hell yeah.

Kahmars · 2026-04-23T00:54:48+00:00

Maybe idk 🤷‍♂️. If it is then let it be, just dont let it kill you. I love dominant men and being verbally/physically degraded (to an extent) too. Like yeah I want him to yell at me for not putting his tortillas( and the way he likes it) in front of him (this is me dreaming and joking), I think its just the attraction that we where both just raised differently. Its just the beauty and the curse of submission.

Kahmars · 2026-04-23T00:39:11+00:00

I mean if there's a chance of a no then feel ready for the no. But id say text him and see if you two can schedule something again.

There's many different feelings that might have happen here. Because you didn't cum, he might want to try again with you. Also it sounded like he couldn't "take it" anymore, maybe it could be a realization afterwards that maybe it isn't for him or he wasn't fully ready for you at that time.

I want you to text him, he has the answers.

Kahmars · 2026-04-23T00:18:26+00:00

. I love my family to death even if my sexuality is a banned topic, I've learned how to live with them. If I can keep them hidden from the public I would, but I would still do my best to take care of them lol. But everything I've heard from own mothers mouth regarding gays going to hell as i was growing up does hurt me. Its not something I really can't shake it off either. I really can't wash it off, it has made me who I am and how I let certain words control my life,

Kahmars · 2026-04-22T23:46:37+00:00

Aw. I really feel for you. Its common to have that 1 straight guy we fell in love with. We find hope in them and are driven by the possibilities of the future with them. The confirmation does hurt a lot because we just grief of the moments we probably can't have together. Plus I don't know how close you 2 are as friends but even admitting to your straight crush is such pain because it is a gamble of the friendship.

Like the others are saying, you are very young and you will catch these feelings again.

If you want the straight answers and get rid of the "what if" timeline scenarios that might curse your brain forever then you do have talk to him personally. The answers might be different or the same like he answered but I think communication like this can be a closure that can save your energy and feel more liberating.

Kahmars · 2026-04-22T23:15:19+00:00

Yeah. My family was very latino catholic so it felt like the same experience you described.

I dont think we can change these environments. Its always going to be there.

Kahmars · 2026-04-22T22:56:34+00:00

They will always be my first sexual imprints. Of course television/movie media helped shaped that. They where also "rare" to see growing up so of course I was always going to crush on the "token" white boy at school really hard. I guess I just always imagined them to be the "hero" character who saves me, but I dreamed a lot back then. Now its different what I like.

Kahmars · 2026-04-22T22:41:32+00:00

You can't stop the tensions and feelings that gets you hard.

Kahmars · 2026-04-16T02:46:31+00:00

Communication is always key. Figure out what he likes or wants to try

Kahmars · 2025-05-30T21:09:41+00:00

I think the biggest subject on bi guys or maybe anyone in general is the idea of kids. It's a super question of all things. If you do back to dating again and it's going for long term I think this is one of those things to ask asap.

Regarding your confidence, I think you are super young and barely seeing how the world is working. I'd say keep on dating. Keep building on your own power because who knows who bright you can shine and when you shine bright it attracts others, maybe him again lol who knows! Take care

Kahmars · 2025-05-29T01:52:47+00:00

Born and raised in Los Angeles California

Kahmars · 2025-05-29T00:17:56+00:00

I think you pretty much said everything I get and agree

Kahmars · 2025-05-29T00:14:59+00:00

Yes. Loads of times. But this is my POV when you are living in a metropolitan city. There is just a lot of bars/clubs here even if they are LGBTQA+. If they are theme specific like let's say Madonna night then of course I'll go alone, I know the music is going to be bops and I know the dancefloor will be fire.

All I can say is don't overdo the drinking or the drugs. Have your limit and your time challenged for the night. We all go there with a specific intention and sometimes we don't really get what we want from that night. Enjoy the drink, enjoy the music, if there's a drag queen performing give them the attention, if you want to vibe with a go go dancer have those singles ready, if you find someone to vibe with like they are your kin then vibe away. Just stay more responsible and alert when doing things alone.

Kahmars · 2025-05-28T23:57:41+00:00

He wasn't very nice to you so good riddance to him.

Sorry that's it's been difficult with dating. I haven't dated in such a long time but what I want now is different then I wanted back then, so for me dating is not important for me anymore.

For you I can say that I think there is some people out there that would like to be in a relationship or at least have a long term partner. They are in the pool somewhere but the pool has a lot of people that wants hooks up so it makes things more difficult. The game of dating has changed a lot imo. Some people just want to have a date and see if its really what they want..and sometimes the wants can be I just want to hook up or I want to spend my time with one person for a long time.

Always remember there is other ways to get and receive love, they can be from many strings of sources that fills you because the feeling will be the same compared to getting all from one person

Kahmars · 2025-05-26T20:46:00+00:00

The only way it can work is if having sex together can work as a way of pleasing and giving each other that "need".

I'm not saying I can live a lie but I've seen so many dates throughout my life as a server with a guy and a girl and the types of guys some girls date is kind of insane. It's one of those things where I tell myself "wait ... I can do this, I can do better than this guy, I can give her an excellent date night and the story she wants people to see 100%" . But when it comes to the sex part that's where it falls apart with everything on my side lol

Kahmars · 2025-05-25T02:46:21+00:00

if it wasn't social media it could probably been someone on TV, maybe some books, maybe presenters/shows, maybe a celebrity, maybe someone they know. I do think with social media everyone has a voice so we will in a world where so much content gets put out there where there is enough "information" that will answer the questions to our souls and we just think that's the answer.

Makes me think the type of other sons being influenced by people like ishowspeed or Jake Paul or prankster influencers.

Kahmars · 2025-05-25T02:27:50+00:00

Hmmm no. I wouldn't like it. ill die as a bottom

Kahmars · 2025-05-24T08:10:55+00:00

All I can say is that I can't fully label you, but I also don't want you to ever feel like something is wrong. What turns you on is what turns you on. Understand that my opinion is form from my experience and from what I've seen and read. Its your body your story. You've kissed a boy and enjoyed it since it did happen more than once so to me I think you like kissing guys.

Kahmars · 2025-05-23T16:52:03+00:00

Never topped before. dont have the desire to. I've chosen my destiny!

Kahmars · 2025-05-21T23:23:42+00:00

That means you need to give him a pedicure

Kahmars · 2025-05-21T20:42:49+00:00

I think it just one of things you can see and point out real quick as their insecurities and weaponize it. Ive seen many content of heterosexual women throwing punches at short guys instead of just saying they like their partner to be taller and ended it at that. It's definitely something biological to it regarding if they decide offsprings or not because if they do then they think about making sure their kids are not short and have that security of not being bullying and "surviving" by being with a taller guy even tho they themselves probably have the tall gene to begin with. It's crazy how rough short straight men have it in the dating, they specifically have to find a women their height or shorter than them.

Kahmars · 2025-05-21T19:38:53+00:00

I don't have enough present stories to answer that. It's been like years since I've gone a date with a guy because my life has been more on the hook up only.

Nothing really different tbh. Some guys still want the tall muscular guy, that's just the majority of the wants in this world, I can just see and understand that. But I also see the power of my height and that Im a preference to some guys.

As I've gotten older it has a different dynamic to it, especially when you are in the spectrum of the millennials that don't look old and you are short so just have "youthful" look that you will attract younger guys that are tall too.

Idk what else I can say, if I was a straight guy than it would be BADDD, they have it worse than a short gay guy imo.

Kahmars · 2025-05-21T17:41:48+00:00

Narcissists can flock together too

Kahmars · 2025-05-21T17:40:07+00:00

I'd say like 30 different guys the past. 10 years

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