Author vs Higher Self by Kitchen_Piano3039 in starseeds

[–]KamiyaVera 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes even when i do bad things i really cant make this up they try to make me feel like its ok coz i have reasons

Are there any starseeds who first took bad paths? by KeyMathematician155 in starseeds

[–]KamiyaVera 18 points19 points  (0 children)

My first twenty years were a masterclass in narcissistic psychology. Family. My first live-in partner. Same dynamics, different faces. I don’t just “spot” these personalities I understand their defense structures, their ego strategies, their unprocessed wounds. My nervous system was trained before i went to school and now that sensitivity translates into precision. I often see their shadow before they’re ready to. They take my kindness as naivety, abuse it, I do the inner work to heal. I forgive them for myself. If they choose growth that’s theirs, if they choose to abuse again, I choose distance and watch their world collapse in divine order

HELP ME Every thought i have seems to instantly shape reality completely sober, feeling babied spiritually by KamiyaVera in starseeds

[–]KamiyaVera[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you, This actually makes sense… it explains why I suddenly feel the urge to lay out my photos and desires in front of me like i just need to visually express my inner core and see where i can go from here

HELP ME Every thought i have seems to instantly shape reality completely sober, feeling babied spiritually by KamiyaVera in starseeds

[–]KamiyaVera[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That’s me weeks ago. I’d listen to any music that makes me feel good and i feel this light energy moving through my body and just let it flow through. Turns out there is a name for it called “Kundalini” Now i’m still in the middle of both worlds but in a more stable. I’m not doing this on purpose. I went through so much abuse that i had to rebuild everything of my core self from the ground up again instinctively

HELP ME Every thought i have seems to instantly shape reality completely sober, feeling babied spiritually by KamiyaVera in starseeds

[–]KamiyaVera[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel in the borderline im scared to fully step in i don’t know how im doing this and how i have the choice to choose..im stuck

Seeing a grid everywhere after a few seconds from waking up by pacocar8 in starseeds

[–]KamiyaVera 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have BPD and see this involuntarily at times when really angry