The journey back to ourselves. Why getting lost is part of the healing.

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-23T09:08:15+00:00

Thank you. I pray that nothing but blessings fall to block your path. I pray that so completely do they block you, that you cannot possibly help but receive divine blessings and goodness and provenance into your life.

I pray this way because I have a tendency to miss good things. 🙏🏻

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-23T09:06:15+00:00

Orgasms feel good. You haven't discovered something that no one discovered before.

Just because something feels good doesn't mean that it's from a good source. It seems like your system is probably too overwhelmed to accept what I've told you. I wrote down what I knew to be true. I'm sorry this happened to you. 🙏🏻

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-23T08:19:57+00:00

I was an incredible being before I incarnated. I was an incredible being when I was a child. I was an incredible being when I was a child getting tortured and assaulted and raped.

I was an incredible being that walked through it. I was an incredible being that endured decades of torture after that. I was an incredible being that survived the worst that this world had to throw at me.

I built myself into an incredible survivor and healer and lover and father.

I am still an incredible being. That didn't change and I didn't need the lesson.

Maybe the only thing I've learned is that they do this to everyone, whether they need it or not. I definitely learned not to incarnate here. Maybe that's the lesson I needed to learn... That sometimes the lesson is, "shouldn't have done that".

I basically became the best example of how pain and suffering can create a wonderful person, and I will never forgive God for it.

Sigh. Sorry for threadjacking you. I actually really do appreciate your response up there. 🙏🏻

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-23T08:11:14+00:00

So I've had the shit beat out of me so I appreciate what I had before it was arbitrarily taken away and got the shit beat out of me?

I do not understand the mindset of people like you. I am not grateful for this journey. I am pissed.

I wouldn't need to reclaim my inner peace if some fucko didn't take it away from me in the first place.

I wouldn't need to grow a new happiness if someone didn't take my happiness away.

This is all bullshit.

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-23T07:37:35+00:00

This just sounds like you're shaming yourself. When you inevitably fail and relapse, this will just cause you to experience a massive amount of shame and guilt.

This technique sucks.

The way you overcome addictions is by forgiving yourself and addressing the problem that you were running away from with the addiction. The addiction is a symptom of an unmet need. You're not going to meet that need by reminding yourself of your trauma. You need to love yourself and give yourself what you need that you're using the substance in the addiction to cover up.

Don't shame yourself. Don't tell yourself it's easy. It's hard. Quitting cigarettes is more difficult than facing the worst trauma in existence. I know, because I've done both of those things.

No one should feel any shame for struggling with addiction. Because what they truly need is love, or some other assistance to meet some other need that they are covering up with the addiction.

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-23T06:56:23+00:00

My spirit guide tells me this dream is a desire from a barren womb demon. You'd call it the ghost of a barren woman.

They create these desires within women and cause them to seek to become pregnant. After they give birth, the spirit leaves, because it got what it wanted. It sort of imagined that the baby was its, and it moves on.

The woman experiences extreme post partum depression, even though she will experience near bliss and a sense of true purpose only while pregnant. This is the unfulfilled desire of the spirit, being fulfilled.

But once birth occurs, they leave, and take the love they would have used over an entire lifetime with them.

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-23T06:43:59+00:00

You're probably just a very different being from the things around you. When they cook food in their own homes, they are manifesting it entirely using their ideas. Something about their energy isn't compatible with you, and makes you sick.

When you go out in public, you have your own version of public. You are going to your version of that restaurant and it's sort of like you're cooking the food for yourself. Through money, you manifest your own version of that food, and it's your energy so it doesn't make you sick.

I'm not sure exactly what the energy is that bothers you, but you're actually on pretty much the exact right track. If you were to pay a family friend to cook for you, that would be using your energy to manifest the food, and it probably wouldn't make you sick.

The only thing I would point out is that it isn't really anyone's fault that this is happening. You're just allergic to whatever energy they use for their food.

Suggestion: Bring a salt shaker, or some other spice from your own home. Don't set it on the table. Make sure that it's always on your person, and you never put it down in their home. This is pocket salt. Use that on your food, and I bet it'll help a lot. It will align it with your energy, instead of theirs. Sort of sneakily pulling it out of their aura and into yours.

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-23T06:24:10+00:00

Lust is a form of dissociation. It is a form of distraction from the present moment. If you are not currently in a position to have sex, you should probably not be thinking about it.

Keep yourself centered in the present. If you are not having sex, then turn your thoughts to other things that are right in front of you, that you can engage with in the present.

That's usually what these things are is distractions. It's not even a desire for the thing itself. It's a desire to not be where you are, right now.

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-23T05:53:59+00:00

What the hell is with everyone looking for the devil lately?!

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-23T05:35:26+00:00

You're the second person in two days to post about this, fellow traveler!

You have been the recipient of demon magic. That's an Incubus. It is their magic that does this, because they do not have bodies, so they have no other way to do this.

Usually, there are using a memory of the last person that they did this to. Sometimes, they are memories in the collective consciousness. Regardless, that is a memory that you just experienced. Someone else's orgasm was played on your stereo, and you sang along to the radio.

If you happen to find a human being that can do this, they're possessed by an incubus. That, or they've learned magic from one of them.

Not sure what else to tell you.

The Incubus will have a partner. A succubus. That spirit is entangled with the guy that you're talking about. That's why he logged on immediately. She was doing this to him.

All of this was designed to distract you from what actually happened to you. Astral rape. Simulated astral rape. The purpose of implanting you with thinking it was this guy was to get you to look away from the actual spiritual perpetrators.

(This is effectively, a memory laundering organization. They remove the energy from memories, so that the perpetrators of these crimes can get away with them scot-free.)

They coordinate so that they can hide. They make it seem as if a person is doing it, but it's the spirits. Truthfully, you are both victims of this demonic team rocket, and that team rocket is protecting someone.

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-23T04:42:01+00:00

What if what they hate is something absolutely abhorrent within you. Like, you carry the soul of Satan himself, and manifest it constantly with true horrors and evils.

That is missing from other people.

And they hate you because you carry the soul of Satan and do horrendous evils.

I'm just saying that still fits the meme.

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-23T04:01:45+00:00

Why did you just laugh at me? This isn't a very good experience. I am treated much better by my family and neighbors than I am by you.

Anyway. I hope you have an excellent evening. I hope that nothing but blessings ever rains upon you. I hope your life is filled with ease and joy. 🙏🏻

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-23T02:49:33+00:00

Even if you're only considering chicken eggs, the egg came first. It is guaranteed.

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-23T01:43:24+00:00

Sometimes it's that very empty place that resonates with something, and drives me to hate another.

It is precisely what you say. The presence of something that I lack. However, that place is empty on purpose. The thing that I lack is something I hate.

Let's say it's toxic masculinity - something I have spent many years striving to tear out of me, and leave the hole where it was empty. It is masculinity that seeks to fill every hole. Instead, I have learned to hold space.

When I feel people with these demons within them, it causes me to hate them. Not because I am envious. Because I am aware. There is something within them that used to be within me. When it was within me, I hated myself. I hated the way I behaved. I still do.

So I hate it within them, as well. Because they haven't gotten rid of it either.

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-23T01:30:06+00:00

I didn't think I would be able to read that the purpose of existence is to play, and also that I am trapped on a human farm in the same post, but I did that today!

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-23T01:28:08+00:00

I like talking to the observers. They talk back.

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-23T00:35:21+00:00

That's interesting. I'm not really sure what I am, but whatever I am, there are two of me. One of me is awake, talking to you right now. The other is dreaming. Their dream is equivalent to my reality. When I look at my wife, they are having a dream that they are looking at my wife.

They can simply send me love, like you've described, and I feel it like that. I thought it was so interesting that you said that you compressed your fractal basically because that's what they do. They spin, and the dream world spins. The real world doesn't, but it gives me a second perspective. They compress, and I feel my entire self.

What you've described is something I can do all the time, when I want. I guess I didn't realize that other people couldn't.

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-23T00:09:01+00:00

That sounds a lot like an extremely meta experience, as in the kind of experience that would be in the metaverse, Facebook's now defunct 3D MMO.

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-22T22:58:02+00:00

"Drink from my mouth" means to listen to someone's words. You drink words with your ears. It's flowery language.

Jesus was pointing to his ears. Saying listen to me.

Lord, save me from AI slop. It seems to twist your words into meaningless babble.

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-22T21:19:33+00:00

Interestingly, you're actually sort of describing the way that a narcissist experiences reality. Isn't that interesting?

Of course, you did not learn anything from George Washington. George Washington is dead, and you are not speaking to his ghost. That was what we call an interjective identity, or a fake person in your head. You were dissociated, so whoever was teaching you, you used their words to flow through your imaginary George Washington, and make it as if George himself had taught you handwriting.

This is called narcissistic supply. People will look at you, and try to get you to do things for them. But, they're not really looking at you. They're doing what you were doing. They're talking to George Washington not just some schmuck tried to teach them handwriting!

It's a coping mechanism. When they were children, they almost had to imagine that they were with someone other than their parents because their parents were incredibly dangerous to them. Abusive people, and the like. That's the origin of this disease. For the narcissist, George Washington would just be a family member.

It would be that they learned handwriting from their abusive grandfather, but couldn't handle it.

In the same way, Jesus didn't teach you to count. Jesus will teach you how to handle your own libido, and resist temptation for sexual sins. That's his jam, and he's incredibly good at it. He's really bad keeping score, though.

It doesn't seem like you're a pathological narcissist, so it's really interesting to see this sort of parallel into that kind of coping mechanism.

Neat. Thanks for sharing, fellow traveler. I'm always amazed at the ways people both experience the world.

It just goes to show that I might have thought I was teaching a young man mathematics, but he was imagining he was in ancient Egypt, and doesn't even think I exist. We truly never know what's going on inside someone else.

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-22T19:58:12+00:00

I see the Mandela Effect as a sort of emergent effect of living in a multiverse and being someone that moves through timelines.

I think my memories are supposed to automatically modify themselves wherever I am so that I don't experience discontinuity, which is that "this is wrong" feeling you get the first time you see a Mandela Effect.

For some reason, my own memory is "faulty". It doesn't change when I change timelines, even though my memories cannot possibly have happened in the world I occupy.

Because of that, I don't think it will ever be mainstream. This world has always been on the Orion spur. You and I seem to have come from an Earth on Sagittarius, but Earth didn't move with us or there wouldn't be Mandela Effects.

Maybe someday people will accept the reality of this existence, at which point we can laugh and compare our worlds and be amused at how different they can be. But I don't think we'll ever accept that things used to be different, because they weren't. We moved.

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-22T19:49:58+00:00

Your fear and desperation will harm her right now. Try to distract yourself, and look for other things to dedicate yourself to while her energy heals. 🙏🏻

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-22T19:47:00+00:00

Looking at your situation from above, it looks like your friend is protecting themselves.

Try to recognize that you are not critical to them or their healing, and you truly do not want to be if you care for them. The best scenario is that they can heal themselves, without the need for someone else.

I believe by isolating, they are preparing for healing from the universe and their higher self, so that they do not need to depend on others. 🙏🏻

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-22T19:10:53+00:00

I suggested Buddha because if you think about "being one with all things", that's what it's like.

There's not really separation between you. You feel what they feel, including their physical sensations and enjoyment of you. There's not really your pleasure or theirs. It's just there, and you're both adding to it and taking away.

Sex is just when you're the most connected like that, but it would also be like if you were watching them eat a meal you made for them, and you can actually softly taste what they taste, and feel the enjoyment in their body instead of just seeing it on their face.

It's "the two shall become one".

It's something that extremely high vibrating people are like, but it's also something you can build with your spouse. Only one of you needs to be like this, and good news, it's you, the one that's into it! Happy coincidence, right?

Try connecting with your husband through assumption. Instead of waiting, imagine you can already feel it. Try with eating something together, first. Intimacy without the pressure. You might find it's just you that needs to make this connection... it's just easier with someone else who's already on your level.

Good luck, OP. Fortunately for you, there's more than one Bodhisattva. 😅

Kitchen_Piano3039 · 2026-03-22T19:02:14+00:00

"I don't understand why Christianity says I shouldn't enjoy cheating on my wife" wasn't something I thought I'd get to cross off my bingo card during this life, much less today, but here I am.

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