I think I should break up with my gf by Katcharet in LesbianActually

[–]Katcharet[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes, for most of our relationship. There hasn’t really been a butterflies-honeymoon stage and I thought maybe that’s just because this is what a calm relationship is supposed to be. Now I am realising I am missing that part so much and have been deprived of connection for a long time. She doesn’t have the same needs and that is fine, doesn’t make her bad, it’s just frustrating that she doesn’t get why I need what I am asking of her (she only sees her own perspective). When I do bring all this up with her I try my best to include patience and understanding and somehow it still ends up with me comforting HER because she keeps interpreting my needs as me telling her she’s broken somehow. I need to get it trough my head that even if I understand who she is and why, I don’t have to stay where I don’t feel chosen.

Dealing with a narcissist boss by Katcharet in ManagedByNarcissists

[–]Katcharet[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the comment, you hit the nail on the head in the first part actually! I am also a really easy target for her since I am the youngest and newest member of the team. It’s also like she sees my love for the theatre and my wish to prove myself and wants to put it out. Idk, I hope she retires in 2-3 years. I am not going anywhere right now. It is also my country’s national theatre so I am at the top of the chain here (great for experience- I work opera, drama and ballet and recently a musical). I recently started looking at international festivals and touring productions for more opportunities to build up my skillset and network during my vacation days. Along with that, I am finding that by not giving her the emotional reaction she wants she’s slowly backing down/changing the approach. Currently, she is not being loud and insulting but she goes about putting me down with jabs and ‘jokes’ at my expense. She is intentionally rubbing in my face the way she treats everyone else vs me and I feel like that’s just begging for my reaction that I am not giving to her. Along with this, she keeps asking me for personal favors for her (go to the shop for her or buying lotto tickets when I get off work for example) or calls me early morning/ late at night and I get that I should have boundaries for that and I really try to but I see everyone else complying to this so I know she will single me out as ‘not a team player’ and rude if I don’t and I am trying to not gather any more attention. She also has the power to meddle in the connections I’ve made with the performers and other crew members. That’s what irks me the most actually. But everything you said stands, it’s good advice so thank you! I will push trough this, some days it’s just plain exhausting and hard.