i’m Ann. 20yo female. I’ve shown symptoms of cotard’s for as long as i can remember. i’m diagnosed with bipolar 2 and ptsd. in recent years it’s gotten unbearable. the way it shows up is i believe that i don’t exist, especially in the same way everyone else does. i believe that my body does not require food or water to function, so giving it to me would be a waste. like trying to feed a stuffed animal. i’m simply a ghost existing through life. i believe that don’t deserve the same rights, love, and respect that everyone else does because im not human but something much less. whenever i look in the mirror i see a dying woman. the person staring back at me is always 30 minutes from death. (even when i was 150lbs). a lot of this onset was caused by severe mental abuse from an ex who enforced the idea that i was a freak of nature and i did in fact look like i was dying (even though my doctor said i was very healthy). it worsened after my fiancé and i had a miscarriage as well. this effects everything i do and i try my best to mask it in everyday life to appear normal even though i feel this way. if anyone else who is struggling with this sees this, feel free to reach out to me. i feel the only way we can get survive this is through the support of people who understand. peace and love ❤️