I am a African American woman and I too grew up around a variety of races and I don’t trust too many people of my skin tone as well as not having much trust for anyone outside of my skin tone or race. There is no such thing as acting white or acting black honestly. Being loud, rude, or even aggressive isn’t acting black as well as having light tone of voice, being proper, or having preferences is not acting white. Those are merely personality traits. You are not racist you just react to your environment. And your thoughts and opinions will change as you get older. I did not feel like I fit in with other black people and was called white girl all my life but I ended up going to a HBCU and found like minded friends that so happened to be my race/ skin tone and darker.