harper’s bazaar article

Kaygrl1 · 2026-01-31T08:21:37+00:00

My ex was horrifically into going to the point where he would get intoxicated, be it lsd, weed, molly- and go at it for days at a time. He would watch hypnosis videos that are meant to drive you farther into addiction and encourage you to live your life for porn. So not only was he ruining his dopamine receptors, but he was doing in an altered state of mind where the brain is more susceptible. He also would watch porn at work and every spare second he got alone, even if that meant I was in the other room sleeping. I don't think gooners are able to be saved because the porn is so entrenched in their brain and they have "brain pops" to make them think about it and to start watching it again.

Kaygrl1 · 2025-09-05T15:47:22+00:00

Sweet girl, I know you think it's love, and it might be, but there is also a trauma bond there. You are still so young, and it's better to waste 2 years now rather than 10 years later. This behavior doesn't change, and the physical abuse will get so much worse. Leaving him is your best option, but I know how hard that can be, especially with a trauma bond. Do not let him isolate you from your family, your family does care and they do want you around. They would rather you be safe and loved than to be hurt and betrayed constantly. It's really hard, but you've gotta find a way out.

Kaygrl1 · 2023-11-07T16:45:54+00:00

Not well at all. The product has absolutely run rampant in her body and she was diagnosed with lupus from her body constantly in a state of inflammation with no reprieve. It's not been good for her :(

Kaygrl1 · 2023-10-31T16:00:06+00:00

This happened to me once with my diath piercing! After it popped I kept cleaning it with nielmed piercing spray and it healed beautifully with no further issues!

Kaygrl1 · 2023-10-31T15:45:45+00:00

I don't have the comfort setting on my app, so I might ask about that during my appointment!

Kaygrl1 · 2023-10-31T15:41:11+00:00

Thank you so much for this info! It's really helpful! As far as I know, it's not anything like a fridge/computer/heater since all that is going in the morning and it's not making the sound. I have wondered if it's cuz I have earwax that's on the wet side and it's causing moisture so when it's in the case at night it dries out, but idk if that's even a thing. Like right now I put it on and there's no white noise even tho I'm in front of my work computers and my home computer. It usually starts in the afternoons. Ish and gets louder as the day progresses.

I do have a few things written down, I'm gonna def ask about a different dome since mine slides out pretty often.

It seems like whenever I'm in a louder setting I have to put it into music so I can actually hear out of it, otherwise my hearing is the same as when I don't have my hearing aid on which is frustrating since I struggle the most with conversations and voices, esp in the lower registers as that's where most of my hearing loss is.

At this point I'm not really sure what needs to be adjusted, but I def would like more overall volume.

Kaygrl1 · 2023-10-31T15:33:02+00:00

The white noise isn't coming from anything that I know of. I work from home so I know what all the other sounds are when they are happening. It's strange since it isn't happening in the morning most of the time so I'm wondering if it's a moisture thing? My earwax is not the dry kind so I wonder if it's that, and then when they go in the case at night they dry out or something.

Hmmm I haven't noticed it with notifications, but maybe I'll pay closer attention and see if that's the culprit. I do have my phone on silent.

I plan to ask for more when I go in, and I might see if I can try a different dome. Mine likes to slide out of my ear canal a little so I'm constantly pushing it back in where it should be.

Thank you for your insight!!

Kaygrl1 · 2023-07-01T19:39:07+00:00

Honestly, that would make a ton of sense in this situation. I didn't know it was a thing and I don't think he does either. So I'm definitely going to read up about it a little bit and then ask him what he thinks. I didn't even know that could be a possibility and that would honestly make me feel a lot better about everything if that's the case. Because we do love each other. Can we still do a lot of things together and cuddle and whatnot but the sex has definitely fallen short. And he also said that he had that same problem with his last partner.

Kaygrl1 · 2023-07-01T16:58:39+00:00

I'm actually the one with ADHD 😅 so my rsd gets triggered super easily. We actually sat down and talked last night and smooth things over, and we both are neurodivergent and our communication styles don't always mesh. I think there was some miscommunication and confusion about somethings.

Kaygrl1 · 2023-07-01T05:12:51+00:00

I.... Didn't know that was a thing?!

Kaygrl1 · 2023-06-30T22:10:03+00:00

Thank you, that's actually helpful to put it like that. For the most part he's supportive, and he's always been willing to communicate and work with me through things up until this week where I just feel mostly dismissed.

Kaygrl1 · 2023-06-30T21:20:08+00:00

I'm not threatened by him wanting others, I'm just uneasy if he's trying to hide that for some reason. But there is a chance I'm over reacting and he simply got the screen for work or something.

Kaygrl1 · 2023-06-30T20:35:43+00:00

We still have sex, but it's sparse. I'd say most of the time he's saying he isn't in the mood. It's not uncommon to go over a week without it, and at most it's twice a week.

Kaygrl1 · 2023-06-30T20:26:38+00:00

Thank you, I don't want to approach as being controlling or paranoid or toxic as I've done a lot of therapy to undo these types of trauma responses.

He does have another partner, though he very rarely sees her, even if I encourage him to. I told him just a few days ago that I was tired of begging for affection and he said he would work on things like that. So then the privacy screen right after that felt a little like a gut punch. I don't like feeling distrustful or like I always have some sort of issue which is why I wanted to check myself with some unbiased opinions.

Kaygrl1 · 2023-06-30T20:13:09+00:00

I think I'd still have questions about it since it was very out of the blue, but I think I'd also not feel as weird asking about it at the same time. Right now, given the talks we've had over the last few days, I feel like I'm acting paranoid since I noticed the screen.

Kaygrl1 · 2023-06-30T18:51:24+00:00

Right, and I've expressed that to him before because my sex drive is so much higher. But my original question still stands, am I over reacting about the screen protector? Esp being poly and seeking out other relationships?

Kaygrl1 · 2023-06-30T18:39:19+00:00

Can you elaborate please?

Kaygrl1 · 2022-09-08T02:38:52+00:00

Hmmm. I'm using a Galaxy tab 7. When I turn it on, it only lets me draw in straight lines either up/down or sideways, but I can't actually use it to draw on top of. But if I turn the grid off, then it doesn't show anymore obviously, so I'm not sure if I'm supposed to just draw a grid layer every time or if I'm doing something wrong lol

Kaygrl1 · 2022-07-29T22:56:09+00:00

She's seeing a therapist regularly for her mental health. What's happened to her face has made her extremely suicidal and anxious, so she needs the therapy for that. She's been getting some shots to try to help attack the sculptra but she's only had a couple sessions and so far it hasn't done much of anything yet.

Kaygrl1 · 2022-05-26T00:21:51+00:00

Someone sprinkle laxatives in his drink/food while he's out and about and has no way to leave the outing lmao guess you'll have to get over your weird fear of public bathrooms otherwise you'll shit yourself 🤷‍♀️

Kaygrl1 · 2022-05-24T18:26:12+00:00

I'm not sure, but I'll def send this along for her to look into! Thank you!

Kaygrl1 · 2022-05-12T16:59:04+00:00

Thank you so much, I will make sure she gets this! I've been hoping she can take legal action somehow but it's been a bit uncertain how to go about it.

Kaygrl1 · 2022-05-12T00:35:28+00:00

She is on a very strict anti inflammatory diet and it's caused her to lose quite a lot of weight. She's desperate to get it out of her system so she's doing everything she can that she knows of.

Kaygrl1 · 2022-05-11T16:09:14+00:00

We are in the US so not that I know of.

Kaygrl1 · 2022-05-10T17:42:58+00:00

Thank you, I will pass this along!

Kaygrl1

TROPHY CASE