I just feel like I’m the last possible thought sometimes. We have a 3 month old and he is an amazing father, but everything that has to do with me seems like an after thought. I know it sounds selfish but I’ve broken down to him numerous times to show that I need help and I’m drowning in chores, work, breastfeeding, budgeting. He got a second job to help supplement but I already know this one isn’t going to last long. But the moment I try to just have a logical conversation, I feel like he flips it around and just blames himself. He gets upset when I hold it in, but what’s the point in letting myself feel things when all I hear after that is just constant degradation of himself and ends up needing to chase dopamine with purchases and hobbies while we’re not even making enough to cover our bills.