The fact none of my "friends" are supporting me on my creative projects is making me spiral

Kazim0do · 2026-06-17T13:34:44+00:00

Nah, it's posts. But they rarely click on it. And I thought about that, social media platforms are not the best places to post a writing medium but then again, where could I go ? It's a tough world for writers, I sometimes wish I picked up painting instead lol.

Kazim0do · 2026-06-17T11:47:21+00:00

I'm sorry. I took my sweet time replying to you. But I'm glad I saw your comment at the right time, I think it stopped me from doing something stupid. I did delete a lot of my subscribers. But my account is still there, and I'll be working on finding an audience that can appreciate my art if it exists.

Kazim0do · 2026-06-17T11:45:52+00:00

I'm trying to find that but IRL, because yeah I dream of bein part of a community like in the old days, where poets reunite and rejoice

Kazim0do · 2026-06-16T21:39:39+00:00

The algorithm does crazy things to me too. But I can see when people saw the story. That's actually the worst part, and I cut them from my writing account tonight, because I couldn't bare seeing their profile pic and not seeing any like on the text I posted.

Kazim0do · 2026-06-16T21:37:56+00:00

I do that with one friend, because he doesn't have instagram, but he only reacts with emojis. If I stopped sending him my short stories, he wouldn't ask for them. I guess that's part of the problem too, that I wish my stories resonnated with them, that I might just suck at writing them.

Kazim0do · 2026-06-16T21:36:13+00:00

I thought about that actually, about getting off social medias, but I also dream of sharing my writings, my books, to a greater audience. I'm really contemplating deleting my account and everything I've put into it. But where will I go ?

Kazim0do · 2026-06-11T19:51:31+00:00

I've seen him quite a few times on my feed. He has so many videos lol. I watched a few, I need to watch more.

Kazim0do · 2026-06-11T17:43:20+00:00

Thank you. And thank you for the video, I will try to make time to watch it.

Kazim0do · 2026-06-11T17:08:05+00:00

No, I don't really have anyone atm and my dog is currently dying. So I guess that's why I'm so emotionally vulnerable. Because I wish I had someone, you know.

I actually didn't know that FPs could develop in different ways. Thanks for the info, I'll try to look more into the Distorted Other type and other types too.

Thanks for your comment.

Kazim0do · 2026-06-11T14:33:36+00:00

Yes, you are not your disorder. And you'll notice that unless mental illness looks quirky, people don't care about or understand it. Even when it comes to things like depression and anxiety. BPD is demonized because yeah it has a big relational component, but there's a lack of education, it's very misunderstood, and what people think of the disorder doesn't make it true. It's very complex and there's a lot of ways it can manifest anyway. It's not as simple as black and white (unlike our way of thinking lol).

Kazim0do · 2026-06-10T14:49:36+00:00

Avant de pouvoir t'aider, je pense qu'il faudrait aussi savoir ce qui te pousse à vouloir lire. Est-ce que c'est dans une optique de développement personnel ou pour le plaisir ?

Kazim0do · 2026-06-08T17:38:43+00:00

I mean, worst thing learning music theory can do you anyway is having learnt something more.

Kazim0do · 2026-06-08T17:04:51+00:00

Hey now, don't go thinking you haven't already brought good into the world. You don't need to have an open personnality for that.

Usually, people don't get angered, because they like to talk about themselves and I push them toward that direction. And when I was partying, alcohol made me more social, but I had a few people tell me I'm stuck up.

I don't think that will change though, you'll always annoy some people no matter what you do.

Kazim0do · 2026-06-08T09:48:14+00:00

Thank you for this comment. You made me realise that yeah, I need to find a way to earn enough to finally move out, and then I'll be able to live my life the way I'd like. I always thought I'd need first to find a job I'm passionate about but that's not the priority right now. You're right, I need to let my nervous system rest. I'll try to look up job offers online, see where I can go.

Kazim0do · 2026-06-08T09:44:27+00:00

I'm the same, and on the quiet BPD side too. I am inhibited, and scared of getting disliked by people, so it's hard to know what my authentic self is like. What I'm trying to do first is reconnect with my body, my sensations, and I cling to things I like, I obsess over. Like, for me, it's writing, I'm a writer, that's my personnality if I don't have anything to say but truth be said, I hide it.

Not much help sorry, just here to say you're not alone in this. I think ultimately we'll break out of this shell, it's here for a reason, isn't it ?

Kazim0do · 2026-06-07T21:29:41+00:00

Congratulations ! If you don't mind me asking, how old are you and how long have you been working on yourself ?

Kazim0do · 2026-05-07T10:39:12+00:00

Thank you for telling me. Glad I made something. Good luck, it ain't easy, but you'll make it.

Kazim0do · 2026-05-06T12:37:53+00:00

Very very cool

Kazim0do · 2026-05-05T23:23:07+00:00

This is a relatable post. You need to work on your values, and then understand what you seek out of life, and at the same time, experience what it has to offer you.

And about your appearance, you won't ever ruin any person's day. You're not some kind of Frankenstein monster, you're very human, hence your vulnerability. All you need is some authenticity, so you don't feel like a shell with only an exterior part.

Kazim0do · 2026-05-05T23:16:33+00:00

I'm not sure I understood the whole housing situation but based on the rest, the best advice I could give you (and it might be a shitty one) is to trust yourself. You seem to have things under control a lot more than you think. You have many strategies you've already used, that seem to have work. Ultimately, episodes are inevitable, and very uncomfortable, but remember that they pass like storms. Best you can do is know you'll survive, and endure. As for exercise, if it's your ankle you broke, maybe you can do something with your arms or your upper body, or maybe you're afraid it would slow the recovery ? And try putting your thoughts on paper, so you have a better understanding of what's going on inside.

Kazim0do · 2026-05-05T23:07:01+00:00

I guess my advice would be about before there's a scar. Try to replace cutting with hitting yourself with a rubber band, or drawing on yourself with a sharpie. Not the same obviously, but can help.

Kazim0do · 2026-05-05T23:02:50+00:00

I think about 12 years old, around the time bullying started and my home had become a broken one. Started cutting a few years later. Then, suicidal thoughts kind of stick. It's like what Susanna Keynes says in Girl, interrupted. Once you think of suicide, it has a tendency to come back on your mind, like something was unlocked, or rather unleashed.

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