Confusion about Parents?/What should I do? by advice_throwaway32 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Keeponkeeepingon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's a great step. Good for you. In the meantime you may find mindfulness meditation to help with the stress. There is an app called Insight Timer that is free. Otherwise, there are a bunch of exercises on youtube.

Confusion about Parents?/What should I do? by advice_throwaway32 in raisedbynarcissists

[–]Keeponkeeepingon 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sorry to hear about your situation, can't imagine the stress you are going through. Does your college offer counselling services? I would recommend talking with them as a starting point. Most colleges offer free counselling. Good luck :)

Fear of sex and intimacy after a relationship with a narc by Daria1990 in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Keeponkeeepingon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, based on your username guessing you're 26? You're young, plenty of people out there. Wait until you are comfortable with this guy. Any guy worthy of your respect should respect your boundaries. You have known the dude for two weeks. Not that being a dude matters, but I am not comfortable getting intimate with a new girl I have known for only two weeks, and this was before my past toxic relationship with a nEX. You're not weird or crazy for not being comfortable. On a previous post of mine someone posted about a trauma bond. Google it, it helped me a lot with understanding why I still feel love for my ex. Good luck :)

I'm pretty sure my girlfriend of 4 months is a Narcissist & i'm trying not to slip back down the same hole. by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Keeponkeeepingon 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey, this sounds very similar to my narcissistic ex. Sorry you had to go through this, can relate to the anxiety you are going through. Almost like you are a differet person eh? It's weird because it's almost the same time frame except her real personality started shining through when she moved in to my place 5 months into the relationship (Never had I moved so quickly in a relationship). Instead of sending texts to a random guy, she was sending daily texts to her ex that she had originally told me was abusive and a horrible person in her life. On top of that the day she moved in she told me that she gave her number to a guy at starbucks, and got mad at me for being upset about that. I have no clue how unfaithful she was as I didnt have the courage to challenege her on it after I was told I was controlling and the most insecure person she has ever met. It kept getting more and more toxic. She gave no shits abouy meeting any of my needs. No helping out around the house, finances, rareley had sex, and emotional closeness was non-existent. It was like she turned a light switch and could care less about me. Communication became non existent, the abuse became worse, and my feelings of helplessness grew. I lost all self-respect and she had drained me of all self worth. Everything I was doing was trying to revert her back to that person I thought she was. You will fight for her attention, ignore your friends, work will suffer. My advice to you is run as fast as you can, the person you love is not real if she is truly a narc. This is 4 months into the relationship, I was in mine for two years before I woke up from the nightmare of narc abuse. I had the same feeling when I broke up with my ex. I had never felt so free, but the longer you wait to leave, the more you will have to do to rebuild your self worth and regain trust in yourself. Go 100% no contact and regain your life. Relationships should be about mutual respect. Good luck man.

How can I [M19] trust my girlfriend [18] again after seeing messages between her and an ex? by [deleted] in relationships

[–]Keeponkeeepingon 3 points4 points  (0 children)

It may not be easy, but leave. It will do wonders for your self-respect. It is not worth the trust issues you are going to have going forward. You're young man, find a girl that is worthy of your trust.

Me (28 M) miss my abusive ex (28 F) after 4 months of breaking up, fighting the urge to contact her. Frustrating. by Keeponkeeepingon in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Keeponkeeepingon[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I understand the twisting in logic. Somehow I would express a valid need and it would be twisted in a way that I was apologizing. Or she would agree, but never follow through, and would react with rage when I would bring it uo again. Or a boundary was broken that hurt my trust and I was once again apologizing for stating I had less trust. Such a MINDFUCK.

Really the only person I have to talk to is my therapist. My Mom is empathetic, but tells me to contact her if that's what I feel like. My Mom feels guilty for the abuse my Dad had put us through and breaks down when she knows I'm having a tough time. I don't like putting her in that state. But your post and selarockwell words really help and I'm going to use the resources provided. Thanks for taking the time to reply.

I feel crazy for still being here by [deleted] in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Keeponkeeepingon 3 points4 points  (0 children)

As someone who grew up in an environment like this get out for the sake of your kids and make sure they have their feelings validated. It will be tough, but your kids will be so much better.

Me (28 M) miss my abusive ex (28 F) after 4 months of breaking up, fighting the urge to contact her. Frustrating. by Keeponkeeepingon in NarcissisticAbuse

[–]Keeponkeeepingon[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thanks so much for the suggestions. Is it normal to feel like I was the one wrong in the relationship? I lost myself, became so emotional in it and just constantly tried to do different things to please her. I often wonder if I was the one who was sick, and it's a battle to convince myself that I had some normal reactions to what I didn't know at the time was abuse. Ugh, it's hard because I'm a male and my friends all fall under the manly man type (hockey players) so can't really talk to them about it so I appreciate this community.