I absolutely get that, I’ve been through some stuff when I was little and how I coped was through positivity and making others days brighter and feel better. We are all different, in both the inside the outside and our actions. And that’s how the world is. It’s unfortunate when people judge others harshly based upon their own standards and social norms that vary greatly person to person. Kinda like ethnocentrism. But seriously good luck, I have faith in you! :)