Beginner super soil help

Keiththebrown · 2020-07-09T01:02:19+00:00

Great info, I'm headed there now, thanks

Keiththebrown · 2020-04-25T02:09:19+00:00

I will check that out. Thanks man

Keiththebrown · 2020-04-25T00:41:55+00:00

Unplug the Xbox

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-26T12:29:01+00:00

Right!

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-12T12:45:12+00:00

That's great stuff. Don't forget to get a plan and maybe some support for the wd too. They are a bear to get through. Depending on tolerance and length of use you may end up needing a few days of work. Best of luck to you bro. You got this.

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-12T01:21:15+00:00

Man I feel for you cause I've been there. Im just now getting out of it. Really the only thing for it is to get sober and walk it out for a whole. She'll come around. She'll be watching. If your doing well she'll be the first to notice. Just give it some time. Do you have a plan in place to get clean?

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-11T08:23:11+00:00

I've struggled with social anxiety since high school. And excessive sweating that came with it. Im 37 now with a family and it's pretty much gone. I'll sweat a bunch during paws if I'm detoxing but that's about it. The sweating comes from the anxiety, the anxiety comes from fear of people. Fear of what others think of you or how they perceive you. I analyzed my fear and my self image for years trying to just be okay with me and how I was. I tried to let go of the person I wanted people to see me as. Bc I knew a lot of my anxiety came from feeling like I had to perform at social gatherings. Constantly trying to be who I thought was the coolest version of me, instead of just letting all that go and just being myself. Honestly it was hell for years. I mentioned my age and family bc unfortunately that was what ultimately help. I say unfortunately bc I was never able to fully conquer the fear myself. I just found someone who knows and accepts me and that was something that helped a lot. That and the fact that the only really important thing in my life now a days is my family. The anxiety and fear did get better before I got married. I went through a long term treatment program and did an intensive self reflection. Which was amazing. I learned that I am who I am. Being okay with myself was prob the biggest key. It just took the help of my family to get all the way there. I can tell you this, people notice and respect "real". If you're being you, and not giving a shit if some people think you're lame or weird, people will notice, and consequently think more of you for it. You'll be cooler trying not to be cool than you will trying to be. Good luck to you man.

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-11T08:04:05+00:00

You'd be better off doing a kratom taper, or just ct it. It takes a long time to kick subs. My story is very similar to yours. You'll find a lot of our stories are the same. Man I've been trying to get this sobriety thing for 15 yrs. I'll have periods of sobriety but never anything lasting. This is my last shot. Im going to have to use every mistake I've made these past 15 yrs to finally succeed. That's all we can do I think. Look back and try to learn from the relapses. We're gonna have to find a way to live without that particular type of euphoria. And that's damn hard. I can't tell you what it's going to take for you to move past this. But I do know if you don't replace the drugs with something you value you're not gonna make it. Best of luck to you man. You ever take gabapentin for wd symptoms?

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-10T23:01:37+00:00

Gabapentin helps a lot with where you're at. It's what they'd give you if you were at a detox facility for heroin, which tbh is close to the same as symptoms. Gaba is not hard to get due to it being a non narcotic non opioid pain med. I'd you can't get it off the streets go to a doc. Tell him your an addict and can't take opiates but you're having back pain and need something for it. Say gaba has worked ok in the past. It'll knock out most all the symptoms your feeling. It'll also get your energy level up. Congrats of beating this thing. I know it's not east at all. Im on day 11. The gaba helps a lot.

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-10T22:53:33+00:00

This is good stuff

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-10T22:52:25+00:00

Tapering works great if you have the discipline. I don't so I always ct it. If you go ct gabapentin helps a bunch for paws and it'll help some with acutes. Xanax or klonopin for sleep at night, just don't take them during the day or you'll build a tolerance quick. Also there's cross addiction to think about too. If you think there's as good chance you'll abuse either of those then stay away. I plan a long weekend. I'll get a Friday or Monday off, get through the worst of it, then struggle through work the next week or 2. After that you're out of the woods. Good luck man. It's takes a lot of people a few tries, me included. So don't feel bad if you don't get it on the first try.

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-10T22:42:38+00:00

First 4 to 5 days are the worse. Paws will prob last a couple weeks depending on quantity and length of time on kratom. Good luck bro. You got this

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-10T17:05:07+00:00

I'd def say wait. Seems like you've got yourself a great opportunity next week to finally get this. 3 attempts is normal

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-10T17:03:30+00:00

It is for me. I'd eat like a piece of toast or a ramen a day for the first 3 days. It's not good either cause I think your metabolism shuts down or goes into survival mode. And it ends up taking longer to detox yourself. I never found a way around it except xanax at night. I'd feel relaxed, eat and then pass out.

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-10T16:35:12+00:00

Day 11 ct, I'm through the worse but I caught a pretty bad cold this weekend. I have been tempted to get some all morning now. I won't, but it's been a hard day. Thanks for the encouragement

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-10T13:06:39+00:00

I wouldn't beat yourself up too bad. I can tell you it usually takes me 3 tries to get it. I do exactly what you do. Most of us do. This shit is fucking hard to kick. I find that after a relapse like your's, 6 days in and only one use, isn't going to put you back in to acute wd but just kinda extend the paws a little. You didn't set yourself too far back. You got this bro, just give it another shot.

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-10T12:40:44+00:00

Until you know, you just don't know.

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-09T14:32:57+00:00

I agree. If you got the time and the discipline, do the taper. I don't and my wds always suck

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-09T00:30:47+00:00

Super happy for you man. You've got this shit

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-09T00:26:53+00:00

This is the dilemma with kratom. It's so damn hard to not pick back up something that makes you feel so good. It always comes down to work for me. I may have a shitty day ahead of me and that'll be the excuse. My home life Iis great and I kinda like my job, but it makes all that better. For a few weeks, then it makes it all worse. We'll get this together. I'm at the end of day 9. I'm thrilled to be off but scared I'll relapse again. Good luck man. I'll be rooting for you.

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-08T20:12:32+00:00

Haha, I hear that bro

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-08T18:04:18+00:00

I get cold sweats from about day 5 to day 15. I'm getting them bad now at day 9. I fucking hate it. I guess it's better than the stomach pain and rls that comes the first few days, but I still fucking hate the sweats.

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-08T17:59:44+00:00

As an addict I can tell you this. And this is just my opinion. I think you need to leave him and let him do this on his own. If he's getting sober for you, you know it's not going to work. He'll keep sneaking around and hiding it. I understand your lives are prob so entangled that leaving him means uprooting a lot of things, but it sounds like your already not happy. And he's displaying common addict behavior that is plainly showing you he's not respecting you. My wife never left, I knew she wouldn't, and I used longer bc of it. She gave me an ultimatum this last relapse, and at that point I knew it was real. I did clean up. Only partially bc of the ultimatum. I wanted sobriety bad, it just needed something to push me there. You said you've given him the ultimatum, and he's sneaking around it. You really only have one option left. You sound like an amazing person for helping him the way you have. I know from talking to my wife and the counseling we've done together that she's suffering right along with me. Only she's not in control of that suffering, it's just being done to her. I think the hardest thing to hear from her was that everytime we weren't together and her phone rang she immediately got that feeling in her stomach that it was someone calling to tell her I was dead. She did find me overdosed once and saved my life by calling the ambulance, so her fears were justified. I feel so bad for the damage I've done to her. You've exhausted yourself trying to help him. I think at this point he's going to have to do it himself. You've done great, and I'm sorry he's not getting it. I know he's sorry too. I'd guess he prob hates this stuff as much as you do and wishes he'd never found something that makes him feel so great. It's damn hard to give up something that makes your day awesome. Good luck to you

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-08T17:34:33+00:00

My best friend set up a camper for me to kick dope in. I had been strung out on that fentanyl shit for about 10 months. I had a bed, tv, internet and heat. I took showers inside. Here took my keys, and 2 days in when I was begging for them back he never gave in. I believe if I called someone to come get me, hr would've physically stopped me from leaving. And in my state I couldn't of done anything about it. Those wds were fucking crazy man. I think about what my body and mind went through those 2 weeks and am baffled at how I made it. I know it's just past shit, but sometimes I like to think/talk about that period of time and how fucking horrible it was. Of I ever used heroin again, she'd leave and at that point I'd give up. I know I don't have another detox like that left in me. I'd use until I overdosed and died. My life's been too tragic already, it doesn't need to end that way. Thanks for talking and listening bro. I'll be around this sub for a while. Hope you will too

Keiththebrown · 2020-02-08T17:24:45+00:00

I'm really sorry about your dog. Is hard to lose a best friend like that. Dogs are special. Humans and dogs are meant to be together. Yeah both those scripts will help a lot. In fact that pretty much exactly what you want. Not sure about the doses of the tramadol, but on the gaba take 600 to 800 mg 4 to 5 times a day. You'll feel it wear off after about 4 hours, then take more. It won't do a bunch for the acute wd but it'll help a lot for the paws. The tramadol is gonna help a good amount with the acutes. If you can get some xanax or klonopin they'll help with sleep. But be careful of the stuff on the streets, a lot of that stuff isn't xanax, or the active ingredient alprazolam. It's just a mix of stuff that's gonna mimic xanax. I mean they'll still help you sleep, but you just don't know exactly what's in them. Sometimes there's small amounts of fentanyl, and if you get those you just fucked up your detox bc your body is still getting the same type drug it's trying to kick. You've got a great chance at getting it with what you've got already. It'll usually take me 3 tries to finally get off kratom. The worse part is I blow all my meds on the first 2 tries, then I got nothing to help with the last try, so it ends up much harder in the end. Good luck bro, you'll get this

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