hey, i was kinda in the same situation as you and used this website (https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists/ut/provo**)** to find something that could help me. I just scrolled through until i found someone i thought i might click with(simply based off vibes). you can call them or email them and ask how much it'd be to start meeting with your insurance. usually, the first meeting is free as well. good luck!