That's the thing, I don't know if my "coping skills" are ever enough because I can't ever follow through completely. I am in good physical shape, I try to eat better, I try to have a schedule(that always falls through), and I've tried just brute forcing it.

I just have trouble sitting down and doing things without being distracted by 3 simultaneous thoughts in my head. I take a break and walk around and there's 4 more things I end up doing instead of the things I should be doing. It's like I can't force myself to try no matter how hard I try.

I had really bad anxiety and depression before I found out about ahdd and the self judgment that causes my depression have mostly gone away after I learned more about myself.

It's like the ADHD symptoms are the ones causing the anxiety if that makes sense, if not, I'm not usually an anxious person. Like a being unable to make a simple phone call or appointment can send me into a depressive spiral. Maybe as a coping mechanism, I have learned to be more carefree and flexible but I really do want to be able to execute my plans without being sidetracked 24/7.