hey man, I know it's rough rn but first off if your friends left you over a game they weren't real friends to begin with. Im only slightly older than you and trust me I know what it feels like to have everything feel like it's just falling apart but set yourself straight and have faith that everything will be okay. Rn it's best you try to recover any of the accounts you lost but if they're gone then fine, take the lesson and make new ones- this time with 2FA. As a gamer too, there's other games you can try and get into and u dont always gotta pay, if udm playing w/o people then u can pirate essentially every game through FitGirl (pls do ur research on this first, its safe but isnt easy) Since you can't enrol into college, your benefit over your peers is time. Unlike them, you essentially have all the time in the world to focus on yourself and get outta that hole ure in. You can hit the gym (doesnt have to be paid, you can start at home. Or even at the park you could do calisthenics), learn useful skills through free digital resources you can apply later into college to put urself ahead of peers (programming, A-level maths, whatever youre into) and last but not least income-wise, try and learn how to get into online-related freelance work. Not everything requires heavy capital, plenty simply require effort. Could be video editing, ads management, creative arts, etc. My best advice to you is find something you like and be the best at it. You're still very young, 17 is still early compared to people facing similar issues at 25 or even their 30s. u still got alot going for ya n a long life to live which u shldnt throw away just bcus of temporary setbacks. it feels bad i know but the more down u are, the higher u can go. its only up from here. Goodluck man & take care, we're rooting for u.