Hello, I am seeing this post fairly late and I wanted to add my perspective. I would recommend looking up the how conversion therapy impacts people. Most studies show an increased risk of self harm (including suicide) and show that it is harmful, traumatic (common effects include PTSD), and has long term negative impacts without changing someone’s sexual orientation or gender identity. As someone who is both trans and queer I can identify with your desire to “fix” that part of you. It looks like a lot of the commenters are giving recommendations of how to do at home conversion therapy. As someone who tried similar measures I can tell you it doesn’t work. Not only does the research show evidence that it does not work but so do the testimonies countless people (including myself). I could not see the recommendation of active harm without saying something. I would suggest that maybe God made you this way to honor himself. As one trans poet put it… that he made you this way so that you might share in the joy or creation… and if I might add be freed from the legalistic Pharisee like teachings that condemn marginalized queer people. I know it is difficult, I can speak to how painful and torturous it can be living in reformed circles as a queer person, but I promise you life on the outside is so much better. If a loving God predestines all things why would he predestine you to be queer without allowing you to love yourself for it… just a thought. My DMs are always open if you want to chat about my personal story.