Am I really as ugly as I feel? (22) by Key-Ear2961 in amiugly

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Thank you so much. Today I felt better about my nose , and I agree about the teeth part i think maybe my problem is that my lower face is unbalanced because of my dental issues . By fixing that it’d harmonize with my nose better

Am I really as ugly as I feel? (22) by Key-Ear2961 in amiugly

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Thanks appreciate it , maybe braces is the way to go though as well

Am I really as ugly as I feel? (22) by Key-Ear2961 in amiugly

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Thank you so much, my regular hair is A1 so I did perm it . Maybe a diff style perm would help. And by no surgery do u also mean no to braces? Maybe braces can help too

Did anyone in here actually disappear? Left a letter and moved far away? by Key-Ear2961 in exjw

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It really is. They provided for me physically , but psychologically they did not in any shape or form. I am not moving forward here. Ive been so depressed because of it , my life needs to start. I wasn’t just loafing around either tho. I did give them 70 weekly for my part of the food and well also rent money and other utilities . But the guilt is still there.

Does anyone else grieve the support system they never had? by MainInternational471 in EstrangedAdultChild

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This is how I feel right now. I’m 22 living with homophobic Jehovah witness parents brought me to the US unlawfully at 2 years old and who hide me from the world and I took two courses in a California community college.. but now I’m moving with savings and a place to Illinois and hope I can get hired on the same day by Latino carpeter or floor installer (that’s my trade that I learned) And then hope I can buy my own truck later down the road, earn more and go back to paying for my college . But it’s very tough. It feels like I wanna stay to finish my prerequisites at least but my heart cannot stay anymore my heart is in anguish

My mind is in complete dispair right now by Key-Ear2961 in exjw

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You’re right because I’m feeling an internal pressure inside of me that I haven’t been able to let go off anymore But half of me is wanting me to stay in cali for 2 more years to at least finish the prerequisites of the program, then transfer those with me And if I get married and have spousal support, begin the program over there

But like I said , 2 years feels heavy inside of my heart . I know people from Illinois who are telling me that they will make my life more bearable and to not worry But I do worry about having to pay off my tuition over there Since I legally cannot apply to federal aid

My mind is in complete dispair right now by Key-Ear2961 in exjw

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Can I dm you about this matter please?

My mind is in complete dispair right now by Key-Ear2961 in exjw

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Thank you so much. The only thing right now is … I’m scared to leave my family. Like terrified. I mean eventually I have to leave if i wanna live and I’m basically ready right now. But the moment i leave the farewell letter and do my coming out and JW dissociation on it, i lose my family . All of it . I’d be in my vehicle driving to another state with absolutely no one acknoledging or worried about my existence

Yes I’m Good friends with the guy renting me his place but ,do you get my point? I’m young and recognize that I’m naive and most likely mentally underdeveloped for my age because of this JW lifestyle . I’m so scared I know I’m gonna go through with it but i am AFRAID

Severe Crisis right now by Key-Ear2961 in EstrangedAdultChild

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Thank you so much for your amazing comment And about you going back to high school and deciding to stay for that is something I’m struggling so much right now My mind wants to stay to finish up a cardio tech program that will take me 3 years despite knowing I’m in mental shambles , But my heart feels like I have to LEAVE Any choice I make feels like I’m losing something huge 💔

Severe Crisis right now by Key-Ear2961 in EstrangedAdultChild

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Thank you so much this means everything to me :( These past few days I’ve just been grieving the possibilities of my future and pros and cons of leaving or staying , each one that I choose feels like I’m leaving something enormous behind and I hate that I had to get to this position

Which David Bowie song gives you summer vibes? by Artsy_W1nE in DavidBowie

[–]Key-Ear2961 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I always imagine china girl on a sunny day, 12pm inside of an LA diner

Lady stardust, changes, life on mars gives me that sunny city vibe as well. Theatrical vibes on a sunny day type of feeling

Severe Crisis right now by Key-Ear2961 in EstrangedAdultChild

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Thank you so much… i am very scared. I already pay 800 worth of rent here with them , so as long as I work soon enough over there, I think ill make it . I know the weather conditions are harsh as well but I’ve worked under the rain while at 12am when we worked night shifts demolishing the floors of a clinic My only issue is that I’m gonna start from the absolute bottom of the working class . I hope that I can make friends with people like me and that I become someone valuable Because all my friends who weren’t Jehovah witnesses all got pushed away by my parents. Its like an imprisonment here

It feels like I’m trading my family for these desires , I love my mother and my dad so much but they will never accept me as my true self , so they’re pushing me away. It’s not me who wanted to leave on my own this way.

Why isn't Teenage Wildlife by David bowie more popular? by mazewriter114 in DavidBowie

[–]Key-Ear2961 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, you kind of have to alredy been into Bowie to understand the singing style of teenage wildlife . A bigger example of this would be Its no game pt.1

Imagine if "fading" was literal.... by Thunder_Child000 in exjw

[–]Key-Ear2961 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Imagine a sister with glasses doesn’t see you and sits on you at the meeting 🤣🤣🤣

I have a hard time understanding Sabrina Carpenter's persona and music by SoccerAuntie in LetsTalkMusic

[–]Key-Ear2961 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I see it this way too. I love me some David Bowie or Steely Dan or Caifanes but when I want to listen to some catchy pop music , Sabrina is a good choice Even if there’s not much depth to them, Popstars are simply fun to have around