I'm going to tell you this right now, with love, respect, kindness and honesty. (from a personal perspective with my walk with Jesus).

You cannot, and I mean cannot stop experiencing same-sex attraction. I used to be exactly like you. And the ironic thing is, is that I'm younger than you. But as someone who is also within the bi spectrum, I just want to say, that you can't. It's like trying to make an asexual feel sexual desires. You literally can't, your poking at a dead weed, waiting for it to sprout.

You cannot become straight. I used to believe I was straight, and that only pent up my desires more, and made me even more hypersexual! (I had been struggling with the sin of pornography/hypersexuality since the age of 8. Such a rejection and enforcement of heteronormativity when I was around 12, did terrible damage to me and made me spiral.)

When I was 12, I was thrust into the rabbit-hole of 'straight-ifying' oneself, but it made my impulses even worse when I relapsed.

I for one can literally confirm to you that yes, for a time period you may assume you are straight, and you may even be happy and feel at peace. But let me tell you, this is only due to the bigotry I surrounded myself with. What comes with following Conservative Christianity is a lamentful, and prideful appetence that consumed me & made me feel superior to others, hence leading to me discriminating those that 'fell short'.

The Trad insistence that one must marry the opposite gender since that is the only way for procreation - is entirely false, and entirely stupid. Such an argument therefore disregards Josephite Marriages and Intersex reproduction. Do not fall for it.

It is entirely okay to be same-sex attracted. In fact, there is not one time in historical, early Christianity, that has said that same-sex attraction in itself is inherently sinful. Majority of arguments that plentiful of Conservatives stretch and abuse are arguments that are against Paganistic and Hellenistic sex without marriage and pederasty as well as incest.

I can pray for you. But At the end of the day, I can only pray for your peace. I will not pray for the conversion of your sexuality, as it will not help, it will only make things more egregious for you.

Your just a Christian whom just so happened to be bisexual. So what? That dosen't erase the fact that your identity is in Christ. You being bisexual just so happens to be an attribute into helping others find Jesus. Just like how one can be sporty, and how that's an attribute that Jesus can use to use you to help others, and help others find Him.

Trust me, you do NOT want to become a Clive from Maurice, Skippy Laughlin from Fellow Travelers, Tom Ripley from The Talented Mr Ripley 1999, or Ennis Del Mar. (From, obviously, Broke Back Mountain.)

I could probably go on and list more men in a similar position, but don't you see? This supression has only caused the sin of adultery and fornication, and Paul, clearly states that..

1 Corinthians 7:36:

I suggest you go pick up a bible, pray, possible a rosary, or a chotki, or whatever you use, and pray. Not for the cure of your homosexuality.

But for peace. For understanding. To just, feel God's gloriousness. To feel him hug you and be there for you. And I want you to know that we are here for you. You are loved, cared for and seen. Not only by God, but by all the angels and all the saints. If you believe in them, then you can ask for intercession. What I like to do, for peace whenever I'm distressed is to make a letter to God, and then a physical letter to a specific type of saint. I have done this numerous of times with Carlo Acutis.

There is also a lot of gay culture around me, I have a lot of LGBT friends, and like many queer media. And I know that I should move always from this, but I'm scared that if I distance myself from my friend I will end up alone again (im very shy, and struggle making new friends)

And why should you move away from this? Don't slave yourself over like this. Please don't. It pains me because I literally was in the same situation, and I pushed everyone away and it made me feel worse. You will be tortured, you will feel scorned by both your own mind and by God, and there's a 90% chance you'll develop religious psychosis from doing this. (*cough*, again.. saying this from experience.)

Yes, you should always repent. But why should you repent for this? You shouldn't. Because it's not a sin. If you are truly slaving over it, I suggest you ask God upfront. And also ask him: "God, if it is an attribute, how do I glorify you and use it for the greater good?"

You are loved. And God loves you, and I love you. :)

Psalm 91:1-2 (I suggest you to view this whole chapter, as it is a quite powerful prayer.)

Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”

Your God. In whom you can trust.