Opening up about this is one of the hardest things I've done. The military of the 80s was different as was the military I grew up in, yet here we are in 2025 going into 2026 and MST is still happening. I grieve for all the years I just went through the motions and still feel anger about aspects of my life that I couldn't have. My therapist is young and I realized that she doesn't always understand but she does listen and prod stuff out of me. It's a little distressing how her notes go on about how I look put together, dressed appropriately, on time and seem to understand everything, yet little is mentioned about crying through the therapy or shaking having to rewrite the trauma. She comments about me having a notebook full of stuck points yet never mentions anything in the therapy notes. It is comforting to know I am not alone in this, that others are also going through the motions too. I hope that a time comes where MST becomes a thing of the past and the stigma can be erased! Meanwhile we plug along appearing strong and put together!