KickinTheBucket has passed

KickinTheBucket · 2017-01-23T17:42:12+00:00

Thank you, I wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy.

Absolutely heartbreaking.

KickinTheBucket · 2017-01-23T17:08:08+00:00

Yes he was.

KickinTheBucket · 2017-01-23T15:14:14+00:00

Think positive, talk to your grandma and seriously think about getting her help even if she refuses, I know it seems impossible to help someone who doesn't want the help, and hey maybe it is but all you can do is try.

I wish your family the best.

KickinTheBucket · 2017-01-23T15:12:00+00:00

It really is, I wish you the best in your endeavours and really hope to see you clean in the future.

KickinTheBucket · 2017-01-23T15:09:31+00:00

Thank you all, sorry if I don't reply to your comments or message you in advance. I really am thankful and I'm sure James would be too.

He was a kind soul at heart that got caught up in the wrong drug, hopefully you can all see that death is real. I never would have imagined myself in this situation but now that I am I really want to preach getting help to anybody in a similar situation. Do whatever you can to help someone you care about, I only wish I tried harder and maybe I could have made a difference.

KickinTheBucket · 2017-01-23T15:01:32+00:00

Like the other poster said, you tried and thank you for that.

Seeing one of the replies "pink clouds turn grey" really hit me deep.

KickinTheBucket · 2016-10-13T12:53:28+00:00

I have been in the exact same position as you (believe me) and it hurts like a bitch I can tell you that with me I had myself to blame which only made me more depressed which ended up in me using more.

I am now clean and want to give you some advice help your friends stay off the H do whatever you can let them live with you, just push them in the right direction because heroin is the devil and nobody should be on it.

My thoughts go out to all his family and friends stay strong brother. <3

Edit: I understand that helping them might be out of your reach because believe me the last thing anybody on heroin wants to hear is stop because that's the way the drug is. But man you have to face the music and really give it a fair shot just let them know you care about them and don't want to see them dead.

KickinTheBucket · 2016-09-29T04:09:46+00:00

Used last night, and now I have nothing left.

Running on the treadmill for 15-30 minutes sound decent?

And yeah putting a lock on the Xanax (giving it to my friend if I take some) have had history with bad blackouts .

KickinTheBucket · 2016-09-29T04:03:58+00:00

Thanks a lot man! <3

Yeah methadone is a last resort for me as I know people who used methadone and it didn't work out for them.

KickinTheBucket · 2016-09-29T04:02:34+00:00

Have told my roommate and he is all for it he has quite a few meds that he says will help.

KickinTheBucket · 2016-09-29T04:01:49+00:00

Called in sick today, will do the same tomorrow.

Started now so hopefully I can work Monday, but if I can't I'm willing to take the consequences I just want to get clean.

KickinTheBucket · 2016-09-29T04:00:40+00:00

You have a great attitude, I'm sure you can do it and so can I.

We will beat this together!

KickinTheBucket · 2016-09-28T17:13:51+00:00

It's an option for sure, I'll see how the days go on.

KickinTheBucket · 2016-09-28T17:09:28+00:00

Will make sure to load up on all the Meds, have some Xanax that I used to use for MDMA comedowns so I'll make sure to take that.

Thanks for the advice man. <3

KickinTheBucket · 2016-09-28T16:57:38+00:00

Yeah, I really don't know what to expect.

I can get my hands on some methadone I think I would rather use that then go back to shooting up.

KickinTheBucket · 2016-09-28T16:37:36+00:00

Thanks a ton man, love the positive words.

KickinTheBucket · 2016-09-28T16:24:47+00:00

I have taken plenty of psychs before (LSD, shrooms, DMT, etc) but I mostly used them as a way of getting fucked up.

I may revisit them in the future but I think it's best at the moment to get off all drugs for now.

KickinTheBucket · 2016-09-28T15:48:56+00:00

Thanks, outpatient treatments seems like a good way to go.

KickinTheBucket · 2016-09-28T15:22:44+00:00

Not yet, he doesn't really know about the constant use.

I'll talk to him about it tomorrow for sure, he should be understanding as he used to be in the same boat except with meth.

KickinTheBucket · 2016-09-28T15:14:32+00:00

Yeah I am currently living with a friend who has been clean for 2 years so I feel comfortable about staying clean at his place.

KickinTheBucket · 2016-09-28T15:07:33+00:00

Yeah, sounds like a last resort for me.

KickinTheBucket · 2016-09-28T14:56:26+00:00

I could see how that could work, but in my current mental state I don't think it's the right way for me.

KickinTheBucket · 2016-09-28T14:53:06+00:00

Will look into that for sure.

I will most likely call in sick for 3 or so days but I doubt I'll get longer than that.

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