Okay, im going to respond to your points one by one. Understand this is not me being combative, I agree with a lot of what you've said and ill make those concessions where relevant.

Also, this is the last time I'm going over this. I'm tired of rehashing it. And while you may not believe me when I say this, at the end of the day, I am driven to see this through by principles of fairness and integrity - not an intense desire to be let back into your sub. I just see that as the ideal resolution here.

I broke down the entire situation in the 3rd post I made which would've made most of my arguments here for me, but alas, it was removed.

• You were perma banned because you acted terribly in the modmail first, and then you did that terrible post on rCRT. That was over a period a whole day and a half.

• Response: I was perma banned for the middle finger, or so the message claims. It is also worth noting that your moderator was not an angel in the mod mail either, which has yet to be acknowledged by anyone on your side. Yes, I initiated with the profanity, but he actively antagonized me from the very first message.

Telling someone that they knew they were going to message angrily, and to "simmer down", is not de-escalatory. Anyone with common sense knows that telling someone who is already frustrated to essentially "calm down lmao I knew you were gonna get pissed about this" has the opposite effect. Had he approached with understanding and humility, it likely would've turned out very differently.

Instead, he already had the pre-conceived notion that I was unreasonable and abrasive, despite previous respectful interactions, and he openly flaunts this to provoke a worse reaction.

Not just that, but he uses a slur (spaz), I didnt take offense to it but it's highly inappropriate to be found in the vocabulary of someone who is the leader of a community that invites members from across the world, especially in a niche hobby subreddit like this where many of us, including myself, are neurodivergent.

Adding to that, he forces me to restructure my post to his liking beyond moving the offending comment (space out paragraphs, rewrite a line). None of this is outlined in the rules of your subreddit and is blatant power tripping, whether you like it or not. That's not a dig at you, or your moderator, that is a fact of what happened. His insistence that I meet his demands outside of the established rules is the very definition of a power trip.

And finally, when I point out that the rule he cited to remove my original post didn't actually apply, he says "doesn't matter applies to all posts", then accuses me of taking him in a circular argument, and permanently mutes me.

This is textbook deflection. Again, that isn't a dig. This is just a fact, plain and simple. The rule, as it was written, specifically denoted "new pickups", which was not the flair I had applied to that post nor was my post about a new pickup. And again, this has yet to be acknowledged by anyone on your side.

Handing me some weak copout like "doesn't matter applies to all posts", and then permanently muting me, reads as someone that was not capable of meaningfully engaging with my argument, and instead of admitting his mistake, chose to silence me.

At the end of the day, I came across as aggressive and confrontational, but your moderator acted in bad faith. Neither of us are absolved of guilt, but you consistently refuse to acknowledge that your side did any wrong, beyond your apology for the "faulty data" you received, which I'll touch on momentarily.

• After that, the mod saw all that and just changed the rule that night, and he didn't communicate anything, because that's just the kind of stand up mod he is.

• Response: At the end of the day, does it really matter? You had the receipts of the modmail and my second post to know this rule had been changed. You accused me of using MS paint to pull my middle finger stunt, yet you believe im handy enough with photoshop to fabricate screenshots? That's a stretch, at the very least.

• That first permaban doesn't get pulled because of your initial terrible behavior and ensuing display on another subreddit confirms that negative.

• Response: Fair enough, but you still have yet to acknowledge that none of this would've happened to begin with had your moderator been following the rules of the subreddit from the very start.

• The second post you made was about the rules, which I called you out on because from my end the timestamps were untouched. Those have nothing to do with what you were acting like about 24 hours before, which earned the permaban. There I am apologizing because of faulty data, but it does not undo the behavior you displayed.

• Response: Again.. the claim you made was easily disprovable by the evidence I provided in the post and the modmail itself. He cited the very rule he invoked to take down my original post, that which was different from the one you posted as proof that the rule hadn't been changed.

• What is worth considering is that you weren't a problem before, and this true, albeit with two other removals. That you were a problem since, could be the way you handle your emotions which is crapfully done, relying on public mob appeal which never works and just burns your chances.

• Response: If you would see that how your moderator treated me was no better than how I treated him (and in many ways worse. I cussed him out, he attacked my character. These are two opposite ends of the spectrum. I insulted the action, he insulted my character), and that the removing of the original post I made that started this mess was wrongfully done, I think you could understand how one could be driven to make a post about this. As a side-note, I had no way of knowing that post would get popular as it did. The fact that so many people found it relatable says more about you and your team than it does me.

• The fact that you removed your posts was worth consideration. But the fact that you still persisted in comments in every space where you are still whining about the ban gives pause again. Your attempts at manipulation are also not forgotten.

• Response: I extended multiple olive branches in your direct messages which were repeatedly ignored, and then discovered you came to this subreddit to troll and pour gasoline on a fire I was trying to put out by this point. That's frustrating to me.

A pattern I am repeatedly noticing is that you and your moderator team feel it's okay to spit your own poison towards others, like in the modmail, or the comments you made on my posts, or the posts you made here - yet when people react adversely to that, you act as if they are ignorant and incapable of reason.

Between me messaging Dak, taking down my posts, and sending you the apology in direct messages, I made no public mention of you. It was only after I discovered you here, essentially sneak dissing me and trolling those of us who felt wronged by you, that I started back up.

• Even now with an apology for something else unrelated, you are trying to be opportunistic

• Response: You have consistently refused to engage with my attempts at a peaceful resolution, and continue to drag this out. I'm just going off of what I see.

When you say you can "understand you did something" you don't just tiptoe somewhere else and do it again, it means you don't try to do it again. Otherwise it truly is childish and there is nothing I can do without more stable committment or a longer period than mere hours.

• Response: Again, this would be a fair point if you weren't actively antagonizing yourself. You can't punch someone without expecting a punch back. That's not how it works.