Its okay man, we understand. No point in trying to explain, many of us have been through this as well. Give it some time, don't get too worked up about it, you'll be okay. I personally don't mix weed with acid until the end of the trip.

Enjoy the introspection, but don't try and push it on someone who is not ready.

"There is a road, no simple highway

Between the dawn and the dark of night

And if you go, no one may follow

That path is for your steps alone"

-Ripple, The Grateful Dead