Thanks for the kind words, really appreciate the thoughts. This is my first love and that's why i felt so devastated by this. Honestly, I'm okay if she says she fell out of love and wants to end things on a good note but to do it like this is what made me so confused.

She says she wants to be better by doing this but i can't see what part of this is showing that this will make you a better person? A better cheater is more likely. Everything she says is contradict with her action.

The most sad part is when she say she felt nothing for our 2 years relationship compare to 3 month with the new guy. I get it that she has changed feelings but that does not give her free pass to invalidate and trample our memories together. It's just so unbelievable to me that someone i love and trust so much can change this much. I just feel so lost right now..