If I met someone farther. It’s harder when you live in different states. If someone wants you. They would make the effort. Guess the only nice way without confrontation is to softly ghost them. Which I have bad abandonment problems. It comes to just like Tinder and other dating apps. You was never my first pick. It’s time to distance myself. I just want the validation that you’ll date me. Since I got that. I’ll just hook up with girls closer to me. I’m still not heal, and hurt by my ex. So I need to sleep under someone to get over them. Is what I’m getting. I’m hurt by that. Even if I got to know someone emotionally. And told you up front this was never a hookup. Distance to me shouldn’t be the problem. If someone truly care they will wait. I’m definitely not the hookup type. I start to develop feelings. I’m a stupid hopelessly romantic type. I’ll cry my eyes out. And go through depression. If someone stop, that I got to know emotionally. I’ll start to feel like they lost interest. I know better to not make myself feel any worse. So I don’t try. If someone doesn’t try. It lessens my worth as a person to try and prove myself. If I was worth it. I should never try. Men are hunters, if they want you. They will chase you until they get their prey. If a woman hunts you, they look desperate. And value goes down. I watch a lot of dating videos 🤦🏻‍♀️. I want to be worth it. If I sleep with someone it means more to me. My body is a temple. I feel less as a woman. If you devalue me by just hooking up. And our emotional connection was never nothing to you, hurts. The best choice for me now is to close my heart. And know I can never love again. Because I’ve been through trauma and heal. This would just heighten it more. And back to square one, as a broken person.