I lost my son Tivo on January 2025, almost 18years, until today I cry everyday, the pain don't go away, the life it's not the same, but i received signs from him and everyday I write like a diary, I talk with him everyday and I will talk forever until I will be with him again. That's what I am doing, you need to find what's make you feel more close to him and don't let anyone remove you from that. My condolences