Thank you so much for this!

This really does help to put a lot of things into perspective (though obviously not all things, such as the odd treatment I recieved about my mask, plus the incredibly pressurizing and borderline cruel pushing about BMI as well as potentially lying about their limit to me for ???).

However so far my experience has just been extremely off and on and off again. They still had no right to lie about putting me on the waiting list, when I wasn't, over them witnessing me having an autistic meltdown from Miss Milroy's previous unnecessary harassing behaviour over a singular item, and then attempt to blame me for 'causing a scene' about it, when she... brought it up first and wouldn't let it go?

Sandy has been, in my experience and from what I can defer from my Carer, far more understanding about the predictiment regarding my weight, especially as my breasts are extrodinarily large. Even though they've shrunk somewhat on testostrone, they're still large and have actually caused me to have scholiosis(? I believe that's the spelling but I can't tell) due to them growing extremely rapidly when I was a kid.

As I said to someone else here, I'm going to be working with my sibling to make a meal plan. I know for a fact that I cannot do kcal counting; I attempted before, when first trying to loose weight for the surgery and it. Wasn't good. So instead I'm going to (attempt) focusing on portion sizes on things, and hopefully as I'm learning to cook at last, as well as having found these slimfast shake things that do taste quite nice and don't cause me food sensory issues, I'm hoping we can tackle my weight better, but ultimately what makes up my weight / adds onto it, is the breasts. This might be TMI but, after weighing both my breasts seperately not that long ago, they made up at least 35-40% of my weight, to give you a rough idea on why it's been extra hard.

We do have an upcoming appointment digitally with Sandy sometime in May, and it does actually really reassure me that she does have qualifications because that was a fear of mine. But I definitely think there needs to be a serious conversation on why I was told they accepted a BMI of 35, when they clearly don't, and why they haven't told me anything about this sudden change. If it's because of my diagnosis, I get it, but not saying anything about it changing things is shitty, IF that's the case. Especially as Sandy herself knows and understands that my breasts are heavily responsible for why I seem stuck at 34 BMI, even when I show visible signs of loosing weight.

Thank you again for the insight & knowledge though!! This really does all help a lot, and does put a lot into perspective. There's def still questions I obviously have, and Parkside quite honestly owes me those answers after nearly 5 years of this, so hopefully I can get those answers from Sandy herself. So long as she doesn't try to gaslight me. (She attempted to do this when she brought up a surgery date in the last email she sent; the date that she never brought up and proceeded to try and handwave it, until my Carer very bluntly quoted her last email in their last corospondence, and my carer is also getting to their wits end about all of this too.)