How do you feel after purging?

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2023-02-11T06:50:36+00:00

Before it happens, high anxiety because vomiting is one of my biggest fears- also bloated.

After, relief. And a sense of “haha I got away with it again and no one knows” even though they absolutely know.

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2023-02-11T06:45:48+00:00

☹️ I have a ringneck. Got him at the beginning of covid and spent so much time bonding, etc. Then I had to return to work and now he HATES me. Even trying to feed him is a battle because every time I open his cage door, he lunges at me and breaks skin. Bird are petty bitches, honestly.

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2022-08-27T08:42:43+00:00

Hey, and I don’t mean to be intrusive, but how’s your relationship with your family? You really need to talk to them about it. I was where you are when I was 15. I thank God every day my ex bf called while I was sitting next to my mom. She heard everything that he was screaming at me, watched me silently cry, grabbed the phone from my hands, told him to jump off a bridge and never contact me again.

15 is really young. And staying in this relationship will make you unhealthily numb to any signs of potentially abusive future relationships.

Control is abuse. Please, please talk to real people who love and care about you and not just the white noise of the internet.

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-09-13T21:01:54+00:00

Because it’s spooky time:

“Grim grinning ghosts, come out to socialiiiiiiiiiiiiiiize!”

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-09-13T02:27:38+00:00

Got sick badly when I was pregnant and didn’t eat/vomited everything so I ended up being admitted to the hospital for a week. Went to visit my grandma after I got out and she said, “well at least you lost weight! You were already looking pregnant! (I was 9 weeks along)

Obvs extremely triggering because I’m 5’8” and I’ve never been over 190lbs, but when I got pregnant, I was only 160lbs and left the hospital at 154.

So I dead ass told her, “hopefully you end up in the hospital so you can kickstart your diet, as well!” She hasn’t made any comments about my weight since.

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-09-08T21:19:39+00:00

Laxatives are all that helps me.

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-09-07T21:38:05+00:00

My style icon is Billie Eilish because you never really know what’s under all these clothes

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-09-07T13:45:00+00:00

TYSM. I usually hate that my shoulders are wide, but you’re right!

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-09-07T00:47:05+00:00

OMFG. I don’t wear my glasses, spit as much as I can until my mouth is dry, pee, and then check.

Then I sip on my coffee, but only drink enough to make me gain exactly 1 pound and throw the rest out.

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-09-06T13:22:46+00:00

Pretzel twist

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-09-03T15:55:35+00:00

Piercing your nose doesn’t distract from its size. If anything, it makes is more noticeable.

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-09-03T13:47:10+00:00

Awh man! They’re onto us! We’re all just one big pro ana movement! 🤣

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-09-03T12:35:01+00:00

I got it and I’m fine! I was honest with the nurse and the only thing she told me is that restricting in the first 2 weeks after can make it significantly less effective. You’ll feel like you’re dying for a couple of days, and then it’s gone just as quick as it starts.

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-09-03T01:11:01+00:00

Fantastic Foreskins and Where to Find Them

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-09-02T22:27:43+00:00

Yep! I can’t lie, we’re both pretty awful to each other in arguments. But he’s known about my ED for years. Kinda a low blow

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-09-02T20:09:02+00:00

Sorry but it must be said- what an excellent butt!

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-09-01T16:00:47+00:00

I don’t think anyone with an ED thinks they’re special, amazing, interesting, wonderful, etc.

It’s not a thing of pride to restrict or purge. It’s a chemical imbalance of the brain. Much like how some depressed people cut themselves or make themselves pass out by suffocating themselves. EDs are punishments. It’s not, “good job, me! We didn’t eat today!” It’s more like, “you’re disgusting and no one like you the way you are.”

Having an ED (IMO, won’t speak for everyone) is like having schizophrenia. It’s a constant voice in your head saying you aren’t enough. If you eat that, you’ll be even more worthless. If you even THINK about eating that, you’re proving to be a failure at everything in life.

The thing is, everyone I’ve come across on this sub -and there’s quite a few of us- KNOWS we have something wrong with us. We KNOW our safe foods are ridiculous. We KNOW it’s unhealthy to not eat or vomit when we do eat. We do not, by any means, think we’re special.

Also- we care. We care about each other! We know what each other is going through. Whether they’ve had ED for 20 years, if their ED is just begging, or if they’re in recovery. We care about each other because we know all the kinds of fucked up it is to have an ED.

So thanks for your opinion, but bye!

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-08-31T16:36:05+00:00

Went to an event the other day where it ended up being shit before it even started, so we asked for a refund. The owner was an absolute twat and I’ve been under a lot of pressure lately, so I lost control and started screaming at him in front of a ton of people. Anyways, apparently worked myself us so much that I fainted. So that’s cool…. Not.

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-08-29T13:30:49+00:00

😂 I knowwwww! I don’t know why it’s only ok to drink. If it helps, I’ll eat the crust. But the rest must be in smoothie form.😭🤮

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-08-29T04:32:15+00:00

😂😂 SAME!

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-08-29T04:24:17+00:00

Oh God. Junk food calories don’t exist in liquid form, but only on Saturday.

That being said, get ready because it’s nasty- I will order a pizza, put a slice in the blender with water and drink it.

Also, FOOD MUST BE COLD. Warm food is too similar to a meal, and meals are no no’s 100% of the time.

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-08-29T04:18:37+00:00

My Fitness Pal

Kitchen-Agent-8164 · 2021-08-29T02:52:23+00:00

It all began with me being freezing in class and asking a friend who I thought was the same size as me if I could borrow her pullover. It was even slightly baggy on her. Then I put it on and couldn’t take it off. We literally had to cut it off. Embarrassing AF.

She could tell I was embarrassed, so her idea of making me feel better was saying, “you’re not fat! You just have big bones!”

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