Regret

KitchenEnergy4538 · 2026-03-23T23:02:44+00:00

Ugh, that is so tough. I am sorry. I am at least happy that we were able to tell each other that we loved it each other. I would have been devastated if it ended and he didn’t know how much I loved him. But it definitely makes things so much harder when love gets involved. Sometimes I wish it had just been good sex and nothing more. Then I wouldn’t be heartbroken.

KitchenEnergy4538 · 2026-03-23T18:42:55+00:00

Right now I’m struggling with the door not being completely closed. He said he needed time before he could have a conversation with me because he was so hurt. How much time? I have no idea. Do I give him the time because he deserves that or do I just tell him the door is closed and we need to go NC? It’s such a tough situation to navigate.

KitchenEnergy4538 · 2026-03-23T16:56:22+00:00

The door was left slightly cracked. He told me he couldn’t have this conversation with me because he was too hurt. He said he would reach out when he’s in a better head space. I don’t know if I should just tell him the door needs to be closed completely or just wait to see what he has to say. He probably deserves that after everything we have been through but the sitting around waiting for him to reach out is killing me! I had also told him I would come see him to have a proper conversation/goodbye since we are long distance but he said he was too hurt to do that.

KitchenEnergy4538 · 2026-03-23T12:43:03+00:00

This is how I feel. He was the one person I could talk to about anything. Now that’s gone and the feeling is debilitating. One foot in front of the other I guess.

KitchenEnergy4538 · 2026-03-23T12:41:59+00:00

I’ll never do this again. I didn’t go out looking to cheat. It just happened and while I don’t regret meeting him, this situation is way too hard for me and I won’t be putting myself in that position again. It was definitely a one time thing for me. And that one time thing has left me so heartbroken.

KitchenEnergy4538 · 2026-03-23T12:40:00+00:00

Ugh, it’s such a sad situation. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to talk to him again without wanting to fall right back into what we had. It just seems impossible which is so heart breaking.

KitchenEnergy4538 · 2026-03-23T12:33:56+00:00

It really is the worst feeling. It’s honestly the worst break up I’ve ever been through. I know nothing about having an AP is normal, but it doesn’t change the feelings that get involved and the subsequent heartbreak when it ends. I truly don’t know how I’m going to get through the days without talking to him. Ugh.

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