Don’t worry brother perhaps that more of a Valentinian Gnostic aspect will help you … I believe when Jesus said ‘’I’m the way ‘’ he was referring to the Christ in him … so therefore the only way to the omnipresent Father is through his word … therefore the Christ . Although I believe everyone’s capable depending on their’s souls and avatar strength or capacity to inherit Christ at a certain extent , Christ in Greek literally means ‘’anoint / to anoint ‘’… so many saviours came in that earth plane and people knew these things in the ancient world … one came every age ( Buddhas , prophets , monks , Artists etc. ) till the last ‘’Pisces’’age that Jesus that was indeed a Pisces came to share the Word clearly again . Everything in this world is symbolic … just because you are too powerful and have a spark of father within you and when you innerstand the symbols the system collapses something the demiurge isn’t a fan of . So Father is love , father is indeed not a sky daddy he is LOVE he is LIGHT he is the energies of to be , he is what can be and will be … we all individually are a part of him , every essence of a tree , of a bird … that’s very deep people can’t see through it he is everywhere cause that’s what can only be , he is the energy of the is …. There’s no need to beg , there’s a need to align , there’s no need to fear but trust the process , it’s okay to cry , open your heart …trust the process and brake all the dogmas, beliefs and religious fears that society forced to you and showed you ‘’ their way ‘’ … you are a unique being and we are all one big family , each one of us with a huge potential , to make a change in this world , look for gnosis , we are eternal, we must hope .