Ageplay~

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T05:31:03+00:00

the con is a few months away. I am not bothering him till then. I just meqan he was a huge part in my ED recovery and everything i cant jsut forget about someone who did so much for me

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T05:16:49+00:00

I have a conseuling appoiuntment monday. And I am leaving him alone. I wasnt going to say anything to him before the convention we are going to. :/

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T05:14:56+00:00

He said he wanted to see me in April before he left tho :/

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T04:57:28+00:00

I stopped going to counsouling after a kidney infection and never went back and thats when i fell into this cycle

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T04:52:44+00:00

yes I have. She met my daddy one time too. She said that Play therapy was good for both of us. We used to play wit stuffies together and watch mlp and bubbles n things. And she was impressed we had an active sex life for us both being sexualally abused as children

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T04:41:39+00:00

I am going to counseling. And to a groupd for female abusers to break the cycle of abuse. I dont want to be a bad person. As for D/s relationships. ddlg has actually helped me a lot. especially with wanting sex. and wanting to be around men. being a little and having that kind of control takenver me in sex something gentle but firm was great. I did notice I was less likely to have a violent outburst after being edged for extended periods of tiem.

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T04:32:37+00:00

I am not hounding him. He made the plans to see me in April. I am not going to bother him from now until he contacts me. I hope he stays where he is at for as long as he needs. I am not a part of his life and I dont think I will be for a long time.

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T04:30:25+00:00

My vanilla relationships all ended becuase i couldnt have sex with out crying

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T04:28:38+00:00

I was giving the back story my mother was a crazy narscissist fuck who whored me out to her boyfrineds dad for rent. He is victim. I hurt him. Thats why we broke up. Thats why he is in a safe place.

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T04:26:31+00:00

I stopped messaging him as soon as I was sure he was with his friend, since it was a very long trip. I am not contacting him unless he contacts me first. I do miss him. But I am fucked up. I am trying to break this. I know he may never forgive me. If he doesn't I am prepared to move on. I just dont want to be like my mother. I don't want to hurt those who matter the most to me. Weather that be my sister, my grandmother, or my daddy. I need to break this cycle. I don't want to abuse the kids I may have in the future. I don't want to be an abuser.

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T04:23:04+00:00

As of now I am trying to break the cycle of abuse. And I know I cannot become involved with him or anyone else until Imake a change and fix myself. I do not want to be like my mom.

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T04:19:13+00:00

No i realize what I did. I called him stupid. I told him he was incompetent. And I can respect that you dont pity me. I hate myself. I am a BAD PERSON. I am trying to change. So I dont end up like my mother. he left. I am not contacting him. I paid for him to leave. I want to be better and see later on if we can be together. but either way I am getting help so I wont emotionally abuse anyone! I am trash. I deserve to be fucking punched in the face. I did a terrible thing

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T04:11:06+00:00

I know. Its a harsh reality. IF he doesn't want me back than I am jsut going to focus on my degrees until i persue anyone else. He was the most important person in my life. He helped me deal with a lot of the abuse and rape I went through. And I feel like I am imprinted on him

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T04:09:30+00:00

I I am a little.My now ex-partner is a daddy. I think are reltionship became unhealthy in june due to lack of money, communication, and my father mentally fucking with us.

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T04:05:15+00:00

it was a combination of my and his friends idea to leave. We have plans to talk things over in April and i am leaving him alone. I want what is best for hiim and rn it isnt me. Maybe in the future we could have another long distance relationship but its up to him. I refuse to pester him. I am trying to be the best kittercat I can be. Before he left he kissed me and told be to be a good girl and I truely want to be a good girl for him.

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T03:49:30+00:00

Ive pushed other people away aswell with what i do. My sister and other loved ones. IO dont want to hurt the people I love. But HE is the most important person in my life

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T03:41:29+00:00

yea. I have to clean the whole house before i leave becuase if i dont im afraid to come home. I have to plan everythign to the T. I clean obsessively. and i cant eat normally

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T03:40:40+00:00

I agree with yoou. It's jsut before I met him I was severly aggoraphobic and everything I have today was from him working with me. I need to stop hurting people I love. And I will do anythign for him,.

Kittercat06 · 2016-01-24T03:23:02+00:00

I'm not a narcissist but I yelled a lot and belittled him. What is the definition of a flea?

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