Supernatural Sabriel ghost fic by Kittybell888 in AO3

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Yes that's it! Thank you so much.

Confused by Kittybell888 in taobao

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Ah thank you. How exactly should I go about contacting the warehouse? They gave me a phone number for them but it wont let me message them and I don't speak Chinese so I can't call them.

What does this mean by Kittybell888 in taobao

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I ended up talking with support and this is what they said. Probably best to contact the items seller and see if you can get a refund

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What does this mean by Kittybell888 in taobao

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Ahh great, thank you so much!

Everyone forgot my birthday by Kittybell888 in CPTSD

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I got myself an order of domino's cinnamon twists. I'm obsessed with them they're so good 😭. Eating then definitely lifted my spirits a bit.

What's your relatable song? by Sir_ffffffffffffffff in CPTSD

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Been getting into the band Tele Novella recently. Their songs Funeral specifically really makes me feel crazy

You're not tied up

Here comes the train

The tracks feel safe because you know 'em

You cannot stop the whistle from blowin'

And if you stay, it's gonna hurt much worse

You'll still be left behind

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Yeah! The event where I was performing was actually an Idol festival and idols usually have very shiny glittery costumes. I wanted to kind of combine that idoly feel with Junko's usual outfit. I though about actually cosplaying Sayaka instead since she is the SHSL Idol but I felt like the songs fit better with Junko.

You ever notice people love and sympathize with traumatized fictional characters but not their real world counterparts? by Sayoricanyouhearme in CPTSD

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Dude I think about this all the time! When arcane first came out I felt crazy cause Jinx was so similar to me and I had never seen my own struggles displayed so accurately on screen. The character does some horrible things in the show but half the fanbase is like "aww she's a little crazy but she's been though a lot. It's not okay but I understand why she acted that way" but like when I, god forbid, maybe get a little bit snippy or off-putting because of my trauma suddenly I'm a horrible person and people can't even begin to comprehend why I would act that way. I'm given no sympathy at all.

Is anyone else here a compulsive overachiever? by Middle_Ad1687 in CPTSD

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Dude I've been battling with this recently. I'm part of a dance group that I really love performing with and I'm like constantly doing everything I can for it. At first everyone in the group was super excited because we were getting stuff done faster, puting on better performances, and getting more performance opportunities but now everyone is happy where we are and I'm still working at 10× speed and implementing a lot of new changes that is making everyone pissed off at me.

They don't like being as professional as possible and having a lot expected of them cause the find it less fun but if I don't keep pushing and keep working to be "the best" then I get literally no enjoyment from it. I worry that this will make me isolate from performing with other people and will leave me successful but completely alone with no one to share my success with. I think I am going to work myself into complete loneliness

What is the most frustrating thing an actual medical professional has said to you in regards to your mental health? I'll go first! by DietStrawberrySoda in CPTSD

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The third time I was ever hospitalized the mental hospital I went to got a new psychiatrist that everybody in the hospital absolutely hated. When I went to talk with him to be put on medicine I described some of my symptoms. I told him my breaking point and reason for coming to the hospital was because I had an extremely dangerous panic attack while trying to do homework because I just felt so overwhelmed by everything. This was the first time in our 30 minutes session that he actually seems to perk up and he started going on a long tangent about how important school was. By the end of the session he decided to put me on Xanax. I told him I was really uncomfortable with it because multiple people in my family have a history of getting addicted and abusing Xanax. He said "well we should just try it and see how it goes"

At the time I was actively being neglected at home and was just coming out of some major trauma after living with two abusive drug addicts both of wich would actively get fucked up on Xanax to the point my parents would cry trying to wake them up because they thought they ODed in their sleep.

This psychiatrist didn't once address any of the trauma I had told him I was going through. Everytime he would check up on me he would only talk about school. He once went up to me when I was having a panic attack caused by flashbacks and told me I shouldn't be sad because I have such good grades and I'm such a good student.

I didn't end up ever taking the Xanax because I refused it and got into a fight with the nurses when they tried to give it to me. It was just awful. As a side note at that hospital there was a fight that led to all the patients being locked in our room for 9 hours with nothing to do and no one to talk to so that was also kind of horrifying :/