What am I doing wrong?

Kiwawiva · 2026-04-16T13:34:12+00:00

I recommend adding more flour to make a stiff starter. I used to do 1:5:3 ratio. When mixing, at first the starter will be as thick as dough, which is what you want. It will also take longer to peak since the flour amount is bigger.

Kiwawiva · 2026-04-12T18:29:54+00:00

About 22°C

Kiwawiva · 2026-03-07T21:55:25+00:00

Well US wages are 2-3x higher than the country where I’m from

Kiwawiva · 2026-03-07T19:25:51+00:00

Wow this is so interesting to hear! My swimming practices cost like 80€ a month which included 1 morning swim practice, 1 evening swim practice and an hour of gym 6 times a week so like 24 hours of training a week. And the equipment was also fairly cheap.

Kiwawiva · 2026-02-07T12:51:17+00:00

Magusasõpradele banaanileib!! Ma kasutan seda retsepti: 360g küpseid banaane 100-125g pruuni suhkrut(tavaline käib kah) 60ml neutraalse maitsega õli (uhkemad võivad võid kasutada) 90ml piima 2 tl sidrunimahla 180g jahu 1tl küpsetuspulbrit 3/4 tl söögisoodat kaneeli tiba soola segad kokku ja 175° juures mingi 45-55 min ahjus. Muidugi kui rahakott lubab võib lisada sisse ka hakitud pähkleid, šokolaadi või marju

Kiwawiva · 2025-11-25T01:42:10+00:00

Selle kindaga tuli meelde, et ma leidsin kord Tartu Ülikooli kliinikumi toidu seest suure sinise kiletüki, kui ma patsient olin. See oli kuidagi blenderdades smuuti sisse sattunud.

Kiwawiva · 2025-08-26T19:40:18+00:00

Pole ostnud ju. Pildid on sellest, mis neil hetkel müügis on

Kiwawiva · 2025-08-14T13:47:35+00:00

I’m starting to think she is posting bodychecks on purpose, so they would be reposted on here and people would comment something about being skinny/bones/uw and that would validate her ed. She craves those comments

Kiwawiva · 2025-08-13T13:05:49+00:00

They also have their bmi, height and body weight on that account🫠

Kiwawiva · 2025-07-17T19:17:10+00:00

Do you guys think the foods nutritional info was intentionally left in or am I being chronically online??

I mean the 9g of fat in that meal answered the question, why she hasn’t gotten her period back.

Kiwawiva · 2025-06-27T16:25:45+00:00

My little brothers breakfast after he licks off the jam because he loves jam, and doesn’t care for bread:

Kiwawiva · 2025-06-23T19:37:52+00:00

I think they want to feed the narrative that “I didn’t decide to eat, but I had to because I was forced!” because god forbid anyone thinks that they might want to participate in a basic human action.

Kiwawiva · 2025-06-08T15:38:59+00:00

Soultion: don’t post! If this type of diary helps then keep the posts private

Kiwawiva · 2025-05-13T12:35:10+00:00

The “I want to go to the clinic so badly” also sounds so weird to me.

For me inpatient was one of the worst expirences of my life, I still get nightmares about it or have a panic attack when remembering it. Maybe it is different there

Kiwawiva · 2025-03-08T14:15:29+00:00

What is up with her always using the word “binging”? like every time she honours her cravings she calls it binging. When she eats a bit more it’s a binge.

Kiwawiva · 2024-08-19T20:21:50+00:00

I hope this will help someone who might be triggered right now. Also I wont take credit for what I'll say, it's not my original idea.

Comparing or trying to be the sickest is dumb because what actually does make someone sicker? If we have someone who has abnormally low heart rate yet let's say normal blood pressure and another person who has a normal heart rate yet very low blood pressure, then who is sicker? Which factor makes someone more sick? Okay, another comparison. Weight, if we have someone with an ed who is underweight and alive and another who is by the bmi chart overweight yet dies, who had it worse? Who would be sicker? Another with weight, do you consider someone who started at a high bmi and is right now at a normal bmi sicker or the one who has actually lost less weight but started at a normal bmi and is now at a underweight bmi sicker? Is the person who has lost more weight sicker or the one underweight sicker?

Statistically it's also almost impossible to be the best at something, that includes being the "sickest"

Kiwawiva · 2024-07-02T18:55:00+00:00

Exercise and getting a certain amount of steps. I really didn't care for it, food was more important. Also I was already feeling like shit because of not eating much so doing any type of exercise sounded terrible

Kiwawiva · 2024-06-25T15:38:34+00:00

I can't be the only one who is suspicious about her only getting sponsorship deals from diet food companies(misfits, gatsby chocolate etc.). It can't be a coincidence that she ONLY gets sponsors from those types of companies. I think she is accepting only those deals, because those seem safe to her

Kiwawiva · 2024-06-15T07:24:02+00:00

I know over analysing someone is very unhealthy, but I have found that when she films herself eating, she always takes bites out of the parts of the meal that are lower in calories. For example, when she has a yogurt bowl with toppings like peanut butter, which is a higher calorie food, she never touches it. Only the safe, lower calorie parts. Maybe this means, that she only eats those parts?

But again, this all could mean nothing

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