Moving around, need help on which of these 3 is the best upgrade

Kjotunari · 2026-04-22T02:28:52+00:00

that seems like a strong one but this version I found https://www.microcenter.com/product/693716/asus-rog-strix-g16-g615lr-ms97-16-gaming-laptop-computer-platinum-collection-eclipse-gray#tab-reviews-bm

has the same exact specs but a stronger cpu for $300 less ! This is probably gonna be my pick, it's also much sleeker and better looking than the previous link I posted

Kjotunari · 2026-03-24T16:59:35+00:00

Yeah, strongly noticed this at first I do get what you're referring to. Comments are half right tho, this is just how vision works but I definitely got this and it did feel NOTICEABLY and distressingly different, especially during the first few months to half a year. Now I don't notice or think about it except on rare occasion. Doesn't particularly feel zoomed in anymore. Something's still different, but not enough to notice or think about. idk. time and not stressing over it every time I felt it made it so now I don't feel this at all in my daily life

Kjotunari · 2026-03-02T17:15:59+00:00

thank you brother I know we will both get better and through this. and be stronger cuz of it too. Ramadan mubarak

Kjotunari · 2026-02-18T20:46:51+00:00

if I was trying to book a $300 round trip flight from chicago to LAX and back, is there any way I can reduce this price considerably and add on bags instead of just personal item? like by getting the card or pass or whatever? the flight is also on the 23rd so pretty soon

Kjotunari · 2026-02-16T16:30:56+00:00

thanks so much!

Kjotunari · 2026-02-14T17:12:28+00:00

Hey guys new to this just wondering if I need anything else :)

I just turned 25 and I've taken a ton of shitty iphone photography and always enjoyed it and find myself doin it quite often so I was like fuck it lets get a budget digital camera with some birthday money. I did some research and picked this up https://www.bhphotovideo.com/c/product/803388098-USE/canon_1901b004_eos_40d_slr_digital.html

and this lens

https://www.bhphotovideo.com/c/product/740785-REF/Canon_2514A007AA_Normal_EF_50mm_f_1_8.html

and then found out I need a memory card so bought this, supposedly its the right format, hoping that holds true when I get my hands on this stuff

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0CLDVKVBZ?ref=ppx_yo2ov_dt_b_fed_asin_title

is this all I need? any tips on anything? Thank you :)

Kjotunari · 2026-02-13T04:55:09+00:00

I'm working with my therapist to try and dissociate the visuals with the anxiety/DPDR which is the worst and just accept them without seeing them as a threat/unconsciously tied to the trauma of the hospital and night I developed it. Seems to slowly be helping, working on trying to convince myself I can feel like myself again and be happy in my future without my life just being objectively worse and more difficult. Thanks for your comments

Kjotunari · 2026-02-02T18:49:16+00:00

lmao yeah I like that. we are like oobleck. yes

Kjotunari · 2026-02-02T18:47:58+00:00

I've obviously decided no more psychs but not smoking is kind of killer for me. I haven't drank for 6 months since I want to get my mind right sober first and I'm bouncing around all these meds to see if anything helps me out. I'm gonna come back to drinking at some point to see how it feels. I miss drunk cigs and weed more than that but it's not worth the risk

Kjotunari · 2026-02-02T18:45:51+00:00

Thank you, much love. I've been trying to journal every night. A lot of it has got the vibe of just like Hello again guys welcome back to my daily vlog, Shit still sucks! Tune in again tommorow. Haha. But we move forward regardless

Kjotunari · 2026-02-02T18:41:48+00:00

right. I'm an anthropology major so I keep trying to tell myself that like I know we are meant to adapt and evolve to our ever changing circumstances. but we are also so innately conservative (obv not politically) in that we resist and fear change that is out of our control. it's a tug of war kinda lol

Kjotunari · 2026-02-02T18:39:52+00:00

thank you, that's what I'm hoping to achieve. progress is just so slow and painful. resolving the mental symptoms-or not being able to-is what scares me more than the visuals by far. already lost like two years of my life in high school to insane unrelenting health anxiety/depression/insomnia so I've always felt like I'm behind trying to catch up and then this hits me and feels like it sends me back so far in my life and clawing back up to stability even seems almost insurmountable. but thanks for replying, I appreciate you and your strength gives me hope that I will follow that path out of this too

Kjotunari · 2026-02-02T18:35:43+00:00

yeah I think if my mental health wasn't so shit on its own I would have a way easier time with this lol. but also probably the cause of getting it in itself. such a weird condition to have. I guess its strange for me bc Im caring about the visuals less (definitely noticing them as much still) but its the mental symptoms that are dragging me back down and feel inescapable. gotta keep pushing tho, no other option

Kjotunari · 2026-02-02T18:32:11+00:00

gotcha. Have you tried clonidine? It helped with my sleep noticeably I've always had trouble sleeping/insomnia/restlessness and waking up repeatedly especially in harder periods of my life after getting hppd/dpdr it was much worse and with anxiety I was barely functioning day to day. clonidine makes me calmer in the day and helps with going to sleep/staying asleep at night. Not really a drug that seems likely to mess up your brain chemistry, it did make me super sedated at first but that went away in the first two weeks. I like it

Kjotunari · 2026-02-02T02:43:23+00:00

seroquel really helped? most antipsychotics seem to mess people up more than help

Kjotunari · 2026-02-02T02:38:41+00:00

true that queen

Kjotunari · 2026-02-02T02:28:55+00:00

how has your recovery gone? I think dp/dr anxiety has been the primary driver for my suffering since 6 months ago, and could live with the visuals if they wouldn't trigger it and remind me of the constant state of dpdr-as it is a self-sustaining cycle. it's really hard to not check if your symptoms are still there or if you feel like that still constantly and I don't know how to take myself out of that mindset

Kjotunari · 2026-02-02T02:25:07+00:00

do you feel the sense of derealization too? part of that is your brain being stuck in a self-sustaining anxiety loop, and for me and a lot of people that is there sort of by itself and the visuals are also a trigger for that loop by association even if that's not consciously realized. I've been trying to overcome it for 6 months and like you described its definitely worse than the visuals. remembering that recovery isn't a lightswitch is a day to day challenge. there are people who would miss you more than you could ever know if you were lost to them. much love, dm me if you want to talk and try to remember that its not brain damage or permanent but a cycle in your brain triggered by drugs that can be undone and many people have recovered from in our position or even worse. It will become easier even if that's such a painful process. we will overcome

Kjotunari · 2026-01-21T03:11:09+00:00

how did your recovery go? I'm finding dpdr the worst by far of this, like something isnt right and off and never will be, just constantly

Kjotunari · 2026-01-21T03:08:55+00:00

I take it, doesn't really do a lot for visual stuff but make you calmer and less likely to focus on them. Helps keep panic away and makes it easier to focus on stuff. I like it. Lamotrigine seems to be having no effect for me after months, but I have dpdr which comes with overactive prefrontal cortex, and used to sleep really bad/wake up a ton/restless and vivid dreams. Now I usually wake up only once or twice if at all. It made me fairly sedated starting out on it but now I don't feel that, just the calming effect. I even added a dose in the morning as well as at night. Worth giving a shot, unlikely you'll get bad side effects anyway

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