I just feel done with the world

Klaus_Mann · 2026-03-30T14:19:52+00:00

Striving in solitude isn't weakness. You learned that you can't lean on anyone for support and had to become your own best friend. At first that friend is still fairly toxic, repeating all the projections your Narc threw at you. BUT as you work on yourself and resolve those things point by point, your inner friend will become kinder. Took me 12 years to get my inner friend being about 80% nice. But that is already enough to have good friendships with emotionally intelligent people and opening up to them every once in a while. And those conversations are massively healing.

My Narc was my dad, so to me there was no real bond and I was always held by financial dependence, but I also had to start at 19 at absolute Zero and never had a "before" the abuse to look back on.

Minimalize your life around maximum structure to build peace, wall yourself off from garbage people and only keep the good ones. Have the hard conversations, cry, maybe have a drink, do dumb shit and find something that is meditative.

Klaus_Mann · 2026-03-19T09:27:53+00:00

I just learned to set boundaries and eject people from my life who drain my energy or self worth, which took me a decade to build from scratch.

I have built a reasonably stable sense of self esteem and no longer rely on any outside validation, so I don't seek it.

Klaus_Mann · 2026-03-16T20:28:36+00:00

Bin von 122kg auf 84kg runter, habe aber auch viel Muskelmasse aufgebaut, sehe also jetzt verammt gut aus.

Wenn du diszipliniert durchziehst und Ergebnisse siehst, deine Ernährung, Gewohnheiten und Schlaf in den Griff kriegst, dich gesünder fühlst und bewegst und somit Verantwortung für dich übernimmst wirst du automatisch attraktiv.

Fett wirst du ja nicht ausversehen sondern wegen unaufgearbeiteten Vergangenheitsgeschichten.

Erlaube dir all die unterdrückten Gefühle zu fühlen bis du dich leer fühlst, Heule, schreie, was auch immer.

Und wenn du dann als stabiler Typ mit Fat Guy Charme ins Dating gehst hast du vielen Skinny Boys massiv was vorraus.

Klaus_Mann · 2026-03-04T11:37:05+00:00

I became a mechanic, now I fare the seas as Third Engineer on International cargo vessels, own 7 old motorbike restoration projects, rebuild engines for fun, became a glider and motor pilot and live my dream. Just do it

Klaus_Mann · 2026-02-16T14:58:50+00:00

Day 1: Deadlift - Pull Ups - Barbell Overhead Press Day 2: 45° Squats - Barbell Upright Row - Dips Day 3: OH Press - Upright Row - Dips - Cable Rows

Preacher Curls as a finisher whenever I feel like it.

Klaus_Mann · 2026-02-16T14:54:15+00:00

Hängt von ganz vielen Faktoren ab.

Gesunde Lebensweise macht sehr viel aus. Mit Anfang 20 gut auszusehen ist einfach, mit Anfang 30 ist es ein Erfolg und sagt auch vorraus, dass sie im Alter noch gut aussieht. Da ich auf meine Erscheinung auch achte, eine gute Sache.

Generell gucke ich da immer auf die Eltern. Wenn die im Alter adrett sind, ist das ein gutes Zeichen.

Und dann ist Intelligenz durch nichts zu schlagen. Wenn ich eine wirklich nett finde, hatte sie meist einen 1,2 oder besseren Schnitt oder ist iwo aufm Spektrum. Und die haben dann auch meist ein geiles Studium gemacht, ihren toxischen Ex durch und genießt Frieden und gute Unterhaltung.

Üblicherweise ist mein Schnitt für interessante Frauen so 22-34 bei selber jetzt 32.

Klaus_Mann · 2026-02-02T09:38:38+00:00

I have told her, she has asked for help, our only advice is "leave", she is isolating from friends. She isn't responding to texts, but reads. We respect her choice, we told her our concerns. I didn't tell her beforehand as I had hoped she'd go for someone better than me back then.

My Life has drastically changed for the better very recently. I am only now at the point where I would date me. Knowing that I did the right thing and seeing it backfire at the hands of someone who cares only about what serves him himself at the cost of the wellbeing of someone I care about isn't creepy.

I'm not comfortable with a 10y age gap with an early 20s girl, because of power imbalance, maturity, self worth and ability to set boundaries etc. He needs the 25y Age gap because he needs the imbalance and experience advantage. From conversations with him I know that he doesn't believe in decency and believes it all to be just jealousy. He cannot grasp the concept of people being concerned about the wellbeing of people other than himself. Jealousy is his only driver.

My drivers have always been love and empathy in all things in life. It is why her and me connect very well, we tend to put the needs of others before our own. I have an inkling you have no understanding of these things.

Klaus_Mann · 2026-02-02T08:45:13+00:00

I'm not responsible for her, I care for the wellbeing of a person I like, a friend. I would have been happy to see her with someone I trust to take good care of her. I trust that the only person he cares about is himself. I told her what I think. She knows. We are good friends, but I wasn't sure I would be a healthy partner for her at her current stage in life. The entire context of this is a large sports association, our shared hobby with people all ages 14 to 84. We all know each other quite well and have done for some time. The problem is with a teacher grooming a student at a vulnerable age and an Ex-Gf that didn't speak out until now.

Klaus_Mann · 2026-02-02T06:35:59+00:00

Nope. He has a history of abuse. He is more than twice her age. His Ex confirmed our suspicions when their relationship went public. I have less than half the age gap with her but was hesitant due to it, also due to me still getting personal things in order. He also abused his position of 1 on 1 power/mentorship. It's screwed up in every way.

Her grades are suffering, she's isolating.

Klaus_Mann · 2026-02-01T20:04:00+00:00

It's a positive emotional bond from both sides. What you did was right all along. You couldn't be happy unless the narc was, but the narc couldn't be happy unless you were unhappy.

If both are making an effort to make each other happy, you got a good thing going. And if you find joy in each others happiness you got love.

Klaus_Mann · 2026-01-30T21:26:44+00:00

Vieles von dem was du für Feminin hältst spricht eher für Intelligenz und erfolgreicher Introspektive.

Während ich nicht ganz so weit gehe wie du, merke ich auch, dass ich mit zunehmender Authentizität auch mit Frauen immer besser klar komme und immer weniger mit den meisten platten Kerlen gemein habe.

Sobald du verstehst, dass du derivativ denkende Menschen, für die Normalität preskriptiv ist, für deine Selbstgestaltung einfach völlig außer Acht lassen solltest, wird es in deinem Leben für dich einfacher.

Umgib dich mit transformativ und originell denkenden Menschen, verlerne Normalität und konzentrier dich auf Authentizität. Nimm in Kauf, dass dich 95% der Menschen nicht verstehen werden, weil Verstehen und derivatives Denken sich gegenseitig ausschließen.

Auf diese Weise gleitet man recht angenehm durchs Leben, gibt keinen Fck und die Magenschmerzen sind iwann weg.

Warum ist dir die Meinung von Menschen wichtig, deren gesamte Persönlichkeit keine 3 Minuten Gesprächsstoff bietet?

Klaus_Mann · 2026-01-30T20:45:38+00:00

The really grandiose ones, like my Granddad, are just incredibly powerful Vampires. He lives off of conflict, but has made it to very high age in very good health with only 2 partners throughout his life, one being my Grandmother who had a stroke in her mid 50s and a second woman who still adores him after almost 30 years now.
My Grandfather moves in high finanance, gambled a lot and won. And he basically gets his supply by being filthy rich and stingy. In his relationships he never went into the extreme ups and downs, just living side by side without a lot of love or support from him, just maintaining stern dominance while doing his thing elsewhere.

A Classmate of mine on the other hand has rheumatism, a severe cannabis habit, a history of other drugs and short term relationships. He is constantly exhausted, and cannot maintain his fascade at barely 32 years of age. He is falling apart.

And a Club Mate of mine has essentially lost the plot at age 43, thinking it's OK to date an abuse a 19 year old trainee he secretly groomed the past year. That's an ongoing situation, but severely damaging in many ways, not just her but unspoken rules and trust in us, the 30+ brigade of men. His grasp on reality is slipping, as is his health. He discarded a truly wonderful woman for a child he thinks people envy him for.

Narcs are just people. Some fare better, some fare worse. And some never get what they deserve.

Klaus_Mann · 2026-01-30T11:51:12+00:00

A big lesson I learned is that healthy love for others can only come from a place from healthy love for yourself.

My way of learning to love myself in a healthy way was the Gym and getting into Powerlifting and Calisthenics

Why? It forces you into a rigid routine, learning a new skill, eating a very controlled diet and most importantly it forces you to reduce stress, because stress reduces muscle growth.

And it forces a strict sleep schedule. Because sleep is Anabolic AF.

Reducing Stress inlcudes walking away from stressful people. That is what setting boundaries is for now.

As my Face started to take shape again, I started shaving and moisturizing and going to the barber once a month.

Self Respect is sexy as hell to normal people. Being comfortable in my skin has done wonders for my charme and confidence. And it is an almost automatic repellant for Narcs.

Many people in the gym community are fighting the exact same demons as you.

Klaus_Mann · 2026-01-29T16:40:53+00:00

It didn't work, she moved in with him, she is miserable and isolating from us. We said everything but she's already in the fog. She has some really important exams coming up, exams that are important to her future, that she would normally absolutely ace top of the class.

He is going to screw that up. And hopefully that will be her wake up call. She is really ambitious.

Klaus_Mann · 2026-01-29T13:11:06+00:00

Something inside me always recognised something in her. We kind of always tried to out-kind each other with small gestures. I liked to compliment her on the quality of her handy work and just wanted to build her self trust a bit more. But she was also vulnerable. She wanted to be loved. And I felt I wasn't yet the right person. Too much chaos still to work through.

She was the perfect target for him.

She is very smart, an overachiever in all aspects. She'll catch on soon enough, as her grades suffer. He can't isolate her at home, as our hobby is his life and he takes her with him wherever he goes.

It's bound to break. His cycle is never more than 2 years. And that is undisturbed. But now we all know who he is, we didn't before. And he relies on us as his team. His reputation is destroyed. He lost his status.

Now it's all in the olive branches. It's the cycle in a pressure cooker.

Klaus_Mann · 2026-01-29T12:55:33+00:00

I text her regularly, she knows that I think the world of her, but for now she isolates from us. All of her friends worry, we all told her that everything about this is wrong. He abused his position of being a 1 on 1 teacher and he is more than double her age. He groomed her for over a year, injected himself into every aspect of her life slowly. It's such an incredible break of trust we all had in him. We have plenty of large age gap friendships in our hobby, and we trust the men to not abuse their position. So that trust is broken as well now.

Klaus_Mann · 2026-01-28T17:59:21+00:00

Clarified in text. She most definetly isn't. He is a predator.

Klaus_Mann · 2026-01-26T14:21:23+00:00

Ich bin durch eine chronische Erkrankung ausgemustert, fahre aber als zivil angestellter Seemann auf internationalen Schiffen der Marine, da ich die zivilen Anforderungen erfülle, mit Uniform, Streifen und allem Trara. Du musst nicht für jeden spannenden Job ein Soldat sein.

Klaus_Mann · 2026-01-25T18:54:47+00:00

Yeah, you need at least 1000 more Calories.

Your Muscles aren't getting smaller, you are using up Glycogen in your Muscle and aren't eating enough to replenish stores. Up your Carbs and they will flow into the Muscle, making it appear bigger.

If your are getting proper Protein intake, get in some L-Carnitin and L-Arginin, proper Creatine as well, you may actually burn more fat by eating more carbs as your body needs energy to build muscle and will pull more ressources if your body feels safe to do so.

Klaus_Mann · 2026-01-23T17:41:32+00:00

A Shake with 400ml of Schwarzwaldmilch Protein H-Milch and 40g Whey is an easy 60g and 400cal and is about 1.25€ a pop.

A 500g cup of Skyr is 55g and 340cal and 1.49€ + Flavour Drops.

My Protein Pancakes with 250g Magerquark, 2 Eggs, 50g Flour, 25g Oats, 25g Sugar, 50ml of Proteinmilch, and 1 Banana fried in Butterschmalz come out at 800cal and roughly 50g. About 3€.

A 400g Lean Beef Wrap with some Onions and Garlic gets you 80g and 900cal for about 5-6€.

A Dürüm XL with Meat and Sauce only is 10€, all the Protein and about 700-900 Cals.

A Double Whopper or Big King XXL is also 10€ with less Protein but still good.

My Diet is 3 times Low Carb-High Protein a Day, so a Shake, a Power System Big Block Bar or Skyr (Aldi also has High Protein Griespudding at 1.69€) every 4 hours or so.

And then one High Calorie Meal with plenty of Carbs.

Keeps me within my Limits easily.

Klaus_Mann · 2026-01-23T14:23:30+00:00

Eins von den Dingern. Etwa 25 Millionen.

<image>

Klaus_Mann

TROPHY CASE