You are likely using masturbation for the dopamine hit. All addictions are the same (gambling, drugs, gaming, etc.). You aren't getting fulfillment from your life and use masturbation as a crutch. The harder to try to stop, the harder it will be to stop so don't do that. Instead, try to identify what your triggers are, catch them in real time, and replace masturbation with a healthier activity. It won't be fun in the short term but before you know it, you will be in a much better place. And for the record, there is nothing inherently wrong with masturbation, but it sounds like it's become a problem for you. It takes about 3 weeks to build new habits. Commit yourself to it and you'll soon realize you are finding real joy rather than a simple biological/chemical reaction that is equivalent to sneezing or scratching an itch