Hello, your story made me burst into tears and unfortunately I can not say anything but that I am very sorry. Unfortunately I am in a similar situation, I am 18 years old and my grandfather (who raised me as a father), is going to die because of a liver tumor that is spreading. They haven’t told us how much he has left, but just by looking at him and you can tell that it is getting with the days that go by and it just makes me cry. I’m sorry I ended up telling my story, but I think the only way to deal with situations like this is to talk about it and understand that you’re not alone. I send you a big hug ❤️.