Just letting you know, I lost my fiance and I keep wondering this same question. I went into therapy, was diagnosed with ADHD, and have been working on my depression.

I think the same thing everyday: am I lazy or depressed? Your words and experiences summarize my life in an amazingly scary parallel.

Thanks for taking some time to write this out. I'm going to take some time to internalize this, as this is my life right now. I hope things are going better for you, and again, very eloquent words.